lazy to post la..

OK.. quick post..

Turns out I'm still as busy after my hell-iday..

haha.. well..

1. i failed my driving test.. haih..

i could taste it.. smell the license already...

why must it be like this!!?

haaih.. (i know grammatically it should be 'sigh'.. but hell with it la..)

i pass jalan.. in the rain

pass slope..

pass parking..

then i just HAD to be overconfident and fail the 3 point turn.. whats wrong with me?

haha..

well next time around will "only" be in 2 WEEKS..

so much for a good start to my week.. lol..

2. Sams clean-up project..

..was about organizing the store..

*points up..

yeah.. THAT store..

Kah Yun and Tim come along to help out..

we got things done pretty fast.. (finished around.... 9.30pm?)

but it was fun.. haha.. found a lot of funny stuff..

what suppose to be either a boat or a kayak..

donated long time a go by someone.. no one remembers who..

shorts.. (fits me.. hmm..)

and a broken tripod.. WOW...

We found a packet of Mister Potatoes that expired last year.. but hey, it still tasted good to me.. :)

(kidding la..)

BTW: keep your belongings to yourself.. nvr know who might be up to no good.. friends even..

3. GMA

Going to pass up my GMA today.. BiG :) haha.. hope it gets through..

more relieved its done than happy though..

maybe because i dragged it too long already.. not surprisingly

but i had to write an essay on the value of RR to me.. 500 words..

and it really struck me how much it has benefited me.. as a person in every sense..

how RR has made me stronger,

thought me new things.. (not only about the out doors, mind you..),

open me up socially,

and (most importantly..) deepen my relationship with God..

"..the Royal Rangers ministry has help me grow in the Lord more than any other ministry i am or have been involved in.."

Irrelevantly, i saw this at my neighboors house..

fire hydrant leaking.. haha..

there goes my good nights rest..

[over and out]

haih.. didnt have the time to blog at all..
(well it WAS one busy week..)

Im not so stressed now..
So im gona talk bout my week.. because i finaly can.. :)

Firstly: my RR chirstian service project is done..

three days of doing what i dont like

painting
dragging my friends to do something inconvinient
painting

but thank God, (and Jims nagging..) im a huge step to completing my GMA..

Confession, I just wanted to get it done for my medal

But Sis Kat passed by on the Wed and mentioned how so very happy the CERC kids would be when they play there the next week..
and guilt and conviction and all that came in..
AND THEN I KNEW ALL THE EFFORT WAS WORTH IT..

heres the end result :

thanks sam n wesley (yea.. him too..) n brian n elisa n kah meng..

Secondly: Annual Camp..

Haha.. Now i officially HATE rain..

It rained every single day!

Sunshine..

Day one: i totally messed up the Council of Fire i was incharge of.. which was practically the night service for camp.. (came from 'Council Fire' meaning a pyramid of stacked wood that results in a huge flame lasting the whole 'council'..)

Screwed it up.. but i was too tired to care..

haha.. apparently so was everyone else..

oh yeah.. thats him..

Day two: i hiked with the Adventure Rangers 9km to another camp site..

(i think its a nice pic..)

respect to the girls man.. i didnt expect them to show anything.. well.. good..

one happy sight.. (after 9km, i mean..)

AND IT RAINED DURING DINNER..

THE DINNER THEY WERE SUPPOSE TO COOK THEMSELVES..

WITH A FIRE.. haha.

They tried cooking in the rain.. (hey.. some succeeded..)

OH oh.. yeah.. at night we had a fire going and a boys-only night took place.. haha.. you know what i mean.. lol.. we shared stories of our EXPERIENCES.. sighing and laughing at each.. and ofcourse passed around TIPS and (lol..) tricks.. HAHAhaaha..

Good fun/bonding time la..

good chance to get to know them better too..
Now i remember all their names.. (and their experiences.. HAHa..)

NOW:

im in a CC because my computers so sO SO slow... but im feelin better.. i guess..

OH.. drove today.. last 3hour lesson..
2mrw test... BiG :)

confident (hope not overly so though..)

ive got to finnish my

Christian service report

GMA merits before tuesday

assignments (oh man..)

random stuff i caught..

mimes.. not bad (only in this pic..)

good cd.. but not mine.. Coldplay rocks..

(do i hear an amen?)

my HELL-iday begins

TODAY:

i woke up..
it was raining...
it wasnt suppose to rain..
how was i suppose to paint in the rain?
i hate rain..

i am thoroughly stressed out..
hair-pulling-wall-punching-yelling-breaking-crying-screaming-cursing kinda stressed out..

so many things running in my head..

but i was writing about all the things i had to do..
when i realized all i have been doing was talking about them..

i don't think its that bad.. really..
I've seen people take what i have way better..
I'm just bad at handling stress.. i tend to run away..
or stone.. and hope it goes away,
do nothing, watch things screw up and just take the blame..
irresponsibility.. God help me, You know I'm trying..

you know, its been really an up and down day..
i feel so pressured by so many tasks..
yet it help me appreciate many good things that happened..

we celebrated my bros birthday.. :) we had cake..
he was happy..
his auntie gave him a hundred bucks.. haha.. BiG :) for him..

Played dota.. not sure how THAT helps..

Kah Meng came to help paint.. which I'm very very grateful for..
and tomorrows gona be better.. because I've got 6 people helping me paint..
THAT can only be by GODS grace.. HuGe :) for me

PS: God, if You're reading this.. please let it not rain tomorrow.. :) Love you (either ways).

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notice unity breaking? friends, family, and every other kind of relationship..
Divide and conquer is his strategy.. it has always been..
can we all just stop?

Yesterday:

Oh, i was talking to Yvonne at the foyer bench yesterday after class..
when SUDDENLY..
she got up and started running.. oh yeah.. went ALL the way to the middle of the foyer and bent down..
then ran some more up the stairs opposite side of the foyer..
haha.. as she walked back, it hit me..

she was actually picking up money for an unfortunate guy.. OH...

i know shes not reading this.. but she quoted a bible verse (Matthew 7:12, the golden rule, mind you..) without realising it.. shes not a Christian, btw..

"So in everything, do to others what you would have them do to you"

And through a certain peculiar twist of events..
i found myself walking with an Ayeshah (wierd way of spelling it..) after the bus stopped at OU..
man, she talks a lot.. which was good, i didnt feel like the conversation starter then..
haha.. good time, good time.. lots of jokes.. lots of throwing insults.. fun la..
took lots of stress off that day..

Today:

Part 2 from yesterday..
i found money under a seat at the computer lab..
A LOT of money..
i informed the guy who was seating there.. and HE asked me if it was mine..
i said 'yes'.. AND NOW IM 50BUCKS RICHER!!!

well, no.. not actually..
i said remembered what Yvonne did.. and yes.. conviction..

and i found a pen drive.. 2gig...
THAT, i almost took..
coz i just lost mine and i thought God was being considerably generous.. ;)
but i found the owner.. Thank God.. i leave guiltless..

(im wondering if im being too brutally honest about myself..
it MAY disrupt my image as a youth leader.. hm..
but hey, what 'image' anyways?)

got my results back today.. sorta like a 'report card day' thing..
two b's n one.. haha.. not so good mark.. but, God help me, im trying..

And i have to do community service? waaat..
fun la..

[But He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you.."]

This really caught me..
You Either Die A Hero, Or Live Long Enough To See Yourself Become The Villain...

Ive been thinking lots about the white knight/dark knight theme in the batman movie..to me, Harvey Dent's really the main character in Dark Knight..

Being the target of two extremes, living with different egos of his life.

innitially it was easy for him, knowing the system, having crowd support, admiring girlfriend, good looks..

so why not fight? there were more benefits on the good side anyways..

Compared to batman, he fought by choice.. not by circumstance..

but when the Nolan takes that away one by one..

and Dent starts to doubt all he trusts.. the only thing he falls back on is chance

in the struggle to maintain his image and hide his weaknesses, the tension of opposite pulls snapped him.. but batman endured?

why did righteous dent snap but batman could take it?

what did dent do wrong?

wasnt he on the right track? didnt he do everything right?

but you see we have one factor that cannot be taken away so easily..
["For when I am weak, then I am strong."]
*subject to editing*

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Mr Tan from eng4c was asking around on monday for our essay topic and its thesis..

he rejected most because the topic was too wide..
me? i didnt plan anything.. but this is how it went..


T: What you write should be someting youre passionate about.. Who else has their topic?
H: *lift hand
T: whats yours?
H: im passionate about SEX
T: ...
( class burst out laughing )
T: haha.. thesis?
H: Um.. yeah.. how.. people.. How Teenagers.. are affected by pre-marital sex.. psychologically..
T: positively, or negetively? ;)
H: negatively la..
T: ... okay, do it..

Yes, man.. not only i get a good interesting topic, it was accepted..

Phew.. Thank God for quick thinking..

"Its okay to get yourself in trouble, just as long as you know how to get yourself out.."

_____________________________

Saying I love you

Is not the words I want to hear from you

It's not that I want you

Not to say, but if you only knew

How easy it would be to show me how you feel

More than words is all you had to do to make it real

Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me

Cos I'd already know

What would you do if my heart was torn in two

More than words to show you feel

That your love for me is real

What would you say if

I took those words away

Then you couldn't make things new

Just by saying I love you

Now I've tried to talk to you and make you understand

All you have to do is close your eyes

And just reach out your hands and touch me

Hold me close don't ever let me go

More than words is all I ever needed you to show

Then you wouldnt have to say that you love me

Cos Id already know

Its 1 now..

Maths presentation was good.. mine was the first team up..
and it was mostly impromptu too..
but the group was good at making things look good..
so it was all good..

Accounts quiz.. haha.. see the results first la..

Driving lesson was on the freeway today.. haha..
lots of cement mixers, lorries, and container trucks..
fun..

Went out with my family later.. (im proud of it..)
because Treyc was back..
+ Wesley wanted to celebrate his bday (18th) while his sis was still around..
sigh.. that boy.. :)
So dad took leave and we watched a movie..

Its been awhile since we all spent time together, i realized..
hard la.. especially if a member is studying overseas..
great to have Treyc back..
absence makes a heart grow fonder..

So, I (finally) saw Dark Knight..
and it was great.. ill have to watch it again..
i dont mind.. who would?
And Heath Ledger definitely outdid Christian Bale..

so youth leaders, thats why i didnt come for prayer meet k.. spend time with family.. ;)

Haha.. i drove them there too.. BiG :)
(you should have heard my mom passenger-seat-driving me up the wall)

See you tomorrow, andrew.. (that means today, actually..)

these colours really dont work together.. do they..?

SIGH

stress...

God help me, i need strength and will..

presentations, quizzes, projects, assignments, and now I'm sick..

LOL

i was having lunch at the cafeteria today..

when i went to order barbecued chicken rice

(which btw cost 7bucks.. no wonder they didn't have menus..)

and i saw my maths teacher... MrG, who ordered the same thing..

He asked if 'that' was it.. pointing at my chicken, which was being deep fried..

next thing I knew, he created a big fuss about

Why the barbecued chicken wasn't barbecued but deep fried..

G, barbecue's the flavor.. not the cooking method..

HAHA

Had lunch with Wayne and Aishah (i think that's how you spell it..)

their the friendliest people i have ever met.. serious..

laughing the whole way through..

BiG :)

Oh, my sis is back!

haha.. its been forever..

spent 2 hours looking for her at OU

glad shes home, even for a few days..

Getting better..

I drove to college today..
but its not something to shout about..
because i was driving the [L] license kancil.. yeah..
i had driving lessons again..
learn parking, 3 point turn n slope this time..
not too bad..

"its always fun to drive, no matter how loud the instructor yells.."

LOL..
I found my big heavy bulky Accounts book..
and i still have my mom's 50.. (...which ofcourse i intend to give her back ;))
but yeah.. im really glad i didnt buy another before i found it.. really..
HuGE :)

"one word: relieved.. "

And i got a ride home..

thanks to Celia..
helped me cut off hours of waiting.. haha..
Nice car.. the colour purple suits you..
good driving too.. ;)

Thanks for everything.. :)

BiG :)

Now im officially sick..

and its not the weather (well, i still blame it.. partially..) but my guess is the durians i had the other day..

-BUT-

i was right..

it was a better day..

sort of..

I got my MDM test results.. BiG :)

3/4 correct.. God, im really cant ask for more.. THANKS!

Proves what Sn pastor says.. do your part, and God does His..

Mom said she'll give RM50 for another accounts book.. haha.. BiG :)

still have to pay the balance.. but 50's a BIG help..

And i took a walk home again.. straighten things out with God..

(more like God straightening things out with me..)

that was refreshing..

HAHA..

An undeniable miracle happened today..

i slept through the WHOLE accounts class...

and teacher didnt complain at all.. AT ALL..

i was really tired.. and sick.. (thats my excuse.. atleast..)

Oh, met theses two girls who got on the wrong bus..

ROFLMAO... (sry, just had to try that once..)

they were heading to KL sentral..

my bus goes to PJ..

so they asked if there was a LRT station.. but KJ station already passed..

Ended up dropping off at OU with me..

I feel for them.. i took the wrong bus once too..

haha.. most people dont know that..

Bad BAD day..
lots of stuff happened.. things gone missing, getting sick (must be the weather), friends problems (which i care a lot about), assignments.. sigh..
yeah..

no bloggin mood la.. even feel like closing down again..

well I'm looking at the (ridiculously optimistic) bright side of life though.. lol..

at least tomorrow cant be as bad..

COA..

So, yeah.. RR KL#1 had our Council of Achievement today..
As usual.. lots of acts.. lots of laughs... lots of FOOD..

oh and the fellowship.. SO much talking sometimes i wish we talked a little less and ate a little more..
( its an 'inside' thing.. )

And pastor Steven was there.. to grace the event..
made me realize how long since i last saw him..

posers.. we're not bad people.. (unless if it comes to it..)

Um.. uh. yeah.. point proven, we're not bad people..

Hey, did you know, the term we're all so familiar with, 'Calvary Youth', actually consists of 4 parts?

Christ ambassabors

CCSM

RR

Missionettes

YES, it does.. dont believe? go check.. GO.

its a term abused more often than not..

I was just thinking, what if.. all 4 groups got together and did something..

What their suppose to do in the first place, our common main purpose..

Because, look.. each of these group have such unique strenghts (and weaknesses, admit it..) thats are evidently different from each other.. what if we put aside differences for awhile and see how high we can reach as a whole ministry..

you want to 'reach, teach and keep'? you want to 'impact our generation'?

but as i say this, i have to admit, it makes me feel guilty.. because i am a Royal Ranger and a Christ Ambassador.. and what am i doing about it? sigh..

please, im not trying to blame anyone, (ive had enough of people misinterpreting my posts..)or trying to say that everything been done wrong.. no..

its just a thought.. after all..

Senior Commander James G..

coming soon to an outpost near you..

just something i thought was funny..

haha.. i dun feel like talkin bout things.. lazy..

Well, saw Rachel in college on friday.. and met an Adam Khoo.. nice guy..

We won a group quiz game thing in accounts.. got a hamper.. theres pic down there..

Um.. oh, haha.. i drove a manual car today.. one step furthur to getting my license..

and met an Alvin See.. nice guy..

Oh, had durians just now.. God knows how long since.. BiG :)

haha.. oh, was walkin through college, thursday, i think..

then i saw high school students.. with red and green ties..

Prefects wore grey vests and pants/skirts..

(yes, awkward description.. i know..)

It was SMKT.. TROPICANA man..

Met Christine and her friends heading for the bus..

man, its been SO long (2 1/2 years)... i miss tropicana days..

the freedom.. liberty..

never bounded by rules, school authorities, or student body standards..

carefree..

and they call us 'rebels without cause'..

Mark my words: no student from any other school can imagine life in SMKT..

haha.. accounts class rocks.. (only for that day..)

took it while eating breakfast.. random.. i know.. lol..

i slept 8 hours last night..
haha.. wow.. i feel.. awake..
typing from sunway computer lab now.. its like..
9.50am..

Yesterday..

While i was waiting for the bus..
Got to know someone from Uzbekistan.. Yeah..
Nulifar (lol.. thats her name, btw..) studies in Segi..
which if you dont know, is right in front of my house..
the only thing that reali struck me was her round brown eyes..
that was cool..

its funny, you know?
im sure youve met someone and talk and talk and talk and talk.. as if you know the person since forever.. haha..
then it ends and youre like "didnt i only met that person just now..?"
some people just click, i guess..
even from countries apart.. sometimes..

just another thought..

oh, this the best part..
i was the last to get on the bus..
and it was PACKED..
so it was two guys on the first step..
me at the bottom..
and behind me was the (back) door..

wait..

just when things couldnt get worse..
at the next stop the door opened and my foot got stucked between it in the first step..
(haha.. if you dont take public transport, you probably wouldnt understand..)
Now the door was half open..
and the ticket guy wanted to come in from the front
he said he could fit thru the gap.. but he couldnt..
so this genius (him, not me.. :P) pushed the door and made the 'gap' wider.. smashing my foot just a little bit more for the fun of it..
lol..

only AFTER he got in did he tell the driver to close the door n re-open it for everyone else to come in..

-as such are the experiences of my life

"..while youre still young do all the stupidest things you can.. when youre old, youll be too reasonable for any of them.."