lol.. go figure..
it doesnt really take a genius to do that..
ive always had this dilema..
and ive read this topic on someone elses blog before..
its a problem faced by people who are genuinely in a battle against procrastination..
and.. haha.. who isnt?
in every school ive been to.. theres this initial drive to study hard..
you know?
when youre sorta inspired by the new books, stationary and uniform..
and in my situations, an entire enviroment
its a whole new beginning, a new chapter to start fresh with..
so you start studying.. chapters before the teacher even starts..
you finish your homework before class ends..
you sit right in front of class just for impression sake..
you ask questions to sound smart and interested..
you highlight, underline, bold and capitalize everything because its seemingly important..
you... well, you get the picture.. :)
then the slacking begins..
it starts with an innocent yawn..
then you accidently forget to bring your homework..
it builds, it accumulates..
and before you know it.. youre back in phase one..
well personally, my longest run was 6months.. then i sorta collapsed..
hey, it was an achievement to me.. i shut procrastination for half a year..
Now that ive started college, its hitting me again..
loosing momentum.. no more will no perform..
haha.. God help me..
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haha.. found good news on my email today..
my christian service project is approved.. with blessings too.. BiG :)
sigh.. finally something good came by.. :)
man.. ive got a test 2mrw.. MDM..
im hoping and praying i do well.. but i know ive got to study..
im starting to enjoy MDM class..
haha.. everyday SURE got drama one..
someone is bound to piss teacher off..
EVERYDAY..
okay, gotta study..
and get my chicken shit hot again..
LOL..
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
i like today..
someone got me a 'Rocky' chocolate on the bus to make me feel better.. :) haha..
yeah..
thoughtful, but a lil wierd..
i guess coz it normally happens other way around..
thanks Sarah.. owe you one :)
Played heli attack 3 with Vincent (or veggie, as he wants to be known as..)
haha.. all the way till class started..
Got a survey to do...
for MDM..
effects of pollution on health care.. hm..
went for lunch with Yvonne and her friends..
Roselyn (well, pronounced that way, at least..) and Tanny (its short for something Russian)
haha.. lots of fun...
thanks for the great company.. :)
i walked home today..
haha.. from OU..
headed towards Ikea..
and straight down to Kota Damansara..
it was on purpose.. not accidently this time.. :P
and it felt good.. i feel healthy again..
haha.. but it was so tempting when the bus came pass me..
and that was like 4 times..
see, thats what i miss about hiking..
its time where i can really think..
time alone from everyone else..
time alone with God..
(maroon5-better that we break, listen to it..)
someone got me a 'Rocky' chocolate on the bus to make me feel better.. :) haha..
yeah..
thoughtful, but a lil wierd..
i guess coz it normally happens other way around..
thanks Sarah.. owe you one :)
Played heli attack 3 with Vincent (or veggie, as he wants to be known as..)
haha.. all the way till class started..
Got a survey to do...
for MDM..
effects of pollution on health care.. hm..
went for lunch with Yvonne and her friends..
Roselyn (well, pronounced that way, at least..) and Tanny (its short for something Russian)
haha.. lots of fun...
thanks for the great company.. :)
i walked home today..
haha.. from OU..
headed towards Ikea..
and straight down to Kota Damansara..
it was on purpose.. not accidently this time.. :P
and it felt good.. i feel healthy again..
haha.. but it was so tempting when the bus came pass me..
and that was like 4 times..
see, thats what i miss about hiking..
its time where i can really think..
time alone from everyone else..
time alone with God..
(maroon5-better that we break, listen to it..)
Monday, July 28, 2008
Today
haha..
got my student ID.. finally (lousy pic.. as usual..)
bought my graphic calculator, nvr seen money fly off that fast in a loong time.. haha..
i had a mock quiz for accounts.. i did quite wel.. :D balanced..
and..
i missed the bus.. :(
i had to go 2 pyramid
lol.. ended up taking T623 there..
which went to KJ,
waited FOREVER 4 the right bus.. which nvr came..
so, giving in to my stomachs protest, i took a cab..
expensive.. lol..
but then i had a big big meal n fruits to top it off..
so its all good..
and then i came online..
My Say in Things:
My say in things:
"All that you want to achieve, or desire to be, tell no one. For one will at the very worst mock and at the very least doubt. "
Ayn Rand - Do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplacable spark.
JRR Tolkien (LOTR) - But those who have laboured to prepare the feast like to keep their secret; for wonder makes the words of praise louder.
"There is no life lived purposelessly, or without a story worth telling..."
"The greatest battle in relationships is to choosing hurt the person you love the most, or yourself"
"God's will for man can be either an intricate web, brownian motion, or a perfect coincidence of both. As far as the human mind comprehends, the third is most likely."
"In everything you do only two things count, the Intention of your heart and the Impression that you give.""
"Ignorance isn't bliss, its either failure to understand either that you dont know everything, or you don't know best.
"All that you want to achieve, or desire to be, tell no one. For one will at the very worst mock and at the very least doubt. "
Ayn Rand - Do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplacable spark.
JRR Tolkien (LOTR) - But those who have laboured to prepare the feast like to keep their secret; for wonder makes the words of praise louder.
"There is no life lived purposelessly, or without a story worth telling..."
"The greatest battle in relationships is to choosing hurt the person you love the most, or yourself"
"God's will for man can be either an intricate web, brownian motion, or a perfect coincidence of both. As far as the human mind comprehends, the third is most likely."
"In everything you do only two things count, the Intention of your heart and the Impression that you give.""
"Ignorance isn't bliss, its either failure to understand either that you dont know everything, or you don't know best.
Sunday, July 27, 2008
The precious plant in the little purple house..
Once upon a time,
there was a gardener..
and this gardener had a big garden..
in this big garden grew many kinds of interesting plants..
On the left side of the garden grew Cabbages, Carrots and Cauliflowers..
and at the right, the garden had fruits like Pomelos, Pumpkins and Pineapples..
But the middle of the garden was most special..
because in it the gardener planted many many types of the most beautiful flowers..
from Lustrous Orchids and Dharling Dahlias..
to Wild Peach Roses and Orange Rec Coxcombs..
the middle of the garden was full of colourful flowers..
Right in the middle of all these flowers,
the gardener had built a funny little purple house..
this house had a little window, and a little table..
but it did not have a roof..
No, the gardener did not forget, but he remembered that all plants needed sunlight..
and in this little purple house was a very precious little plant..
why did he built the house?
because he did not want to show anyone his favourite plant..
So every time someone asked, "whats in that house, gardener?"
he would just reply, "there's a very special plant inside.."
and show them all his other plants,
giving water and putting fertilizer in their soil..
Then when night came, when there was no one around,
the gardener would go into the little house to look at his precious flower
giving special water and putting special fertilizer in its soil..
the gardener also sat by the plant because he knew that special plants need a lot of care to grow
As time went on, the precious plant in the little purple house grew..
now it had a bulb.. which would soon bloom into a flower..
the gardener was very happy because he knew the flower would be very pretty..
But the other plants around the house grew too..
and more and more people were interested in the gardeners garden..
everyone wanted to see how beautiful his garden was..
Everyday, he had to take visitors around his garden many times..
and every time someone asked, "whats in that house, gardener?"
he would just reply, "there's a very special plant inside.."
everybody wanted to see what was inside the little purple house..
But this made the gardener very tired..
he soon forgot of the precious plant in his little purple house..
the gardener stopped giving special water
and stopped putting special fertilizer in its soil..
he was too tired from showing everyone his garden to take care of his precious plant..
Days passed by
many visitors continued to visit his garden
and the gardener had no time to take care of his plant..
Inside the little purple house..
the precious plant began to feel lonely..
it felt that the gardener cared only for all the other plants
The plant also began to feel hungry and thirsty..
because the gardener forgot to give it special water
and put special fertilizer in its soil..
But what the plant wanted most was to have the gardener sit by the plant
because it was a special plant and needed a lot of care to grow
The plant began to die..
its bulb bloomed but the petals were weak..
and the petals and the leaves soon began to wither and fall off..
Days later, the gardener suddenly remembered about the precious plant..
he rushed to the little purple house to see if the plant was alright..
when he saw the plant, he was very sad because he thought that the plant had died..
But the precious plant was not dead
there were a few leaves that were still green..
why did it not die? how did it stay alive?
because there was no roof.. and the sunlight could still come in..
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thinkin of wat was.. and wat could possibly be..
there was a gardener..
and this gardener had a big garden..
in this big garden grew many kinds of interesting plants..
On the left side of the garden grew Cabbages, Carrots and Cauliflowers..
and at the right, the garden had fruits like Pomelos, Pumpkins and Pineapples..
But the middle of the garden was most special..
because in it the gardener planted many many types of the most beautiful flowers..
from Lustrous Orchids and Dharling Dahlias..
to Wild Peach Roses and Orange Rec Coxcombs..
the middle of the garden was full of colourful flowers..
Right in the middle of all these flowers,
the gardener had built a funny little purple house..
this house had a little window, and a little table..
but it did not have a roof..
No, the gardener did not forget, but he remembered that all plants needed sunlight..
and in this little purple house was a very precious little plant..
why did he built the house?
because he did not want to show anyone his favourite plant..
So every time someone asked, "whats in that house, gardener?"
he would just reply, "there's a very special plant inside.."
and show them all his other plants,
giving water and putting fertilizer in their soil..
Then when night came, when there was no one around,
the gardener would go into the little house to look at his precious flower
giving special water and putting special fertilizer in its soil..
the gardener also sat by the plant because he knew that special plants need a lot of care to grow
As time went on, the precious plant in the little purple house grew..
now it had a bulb.. which would soon bloom into a flower..
the gardener was very happy because he knew the flower would be very pretty..
But the other plants around the house grew too..
and more and more people were interested in the gardeners garden..
everyone wanted to see how beautiful his garden was..
Everyday, he had to take visitors around his garden many times..
and every time someone asked, "whats in that house, gardener?"
he would just reply, "there's a very special plant inside.."
everybody wanted to see what was inside the little purple house..
But this made the gardener very tired..
he soon forgot of the precious plant in his little purple house..
the gardener stopped giving special water
and stopped putting special fertilizer in its soil..
he was too tired from showing everyone his garden to take care of his precious plant..
Days passed by
many visitors continued to visit his garden
and the gardener had no time to take care of his plant..
Inside the little purple house..
the precious plant began to feel lonely..
it felt that the gardener cared only for all the other plants
The plant also began to feel hungry and thirsty..
because the gardener forgot to give it special water
and put special fertilizer in its soil..
But what the plant wanted most was to have the gardener sit by the plant
because it was a special plant and needed a lot of care to grow
The plant began to die..
its bulb bloomed but the petals were weak..
and the petals and the leaves soon began to wither and fall off..
Days later, the gardener suddenly remembered about the precious plant..
he rushed to the little purple house to see if the plant was alright..
when he saw the plant, he was very sad because he thought that the plant had died..
But the precious plant was not dead
there were a few leaves that were still green..
why did it not die? how did it stay alive?
because there was no roof.. and the sunlight could still come in..
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thinkin of wat was.. and wat could possibly be..
Saturday, July 26, 2008
26/7/2008
i feel down..
because a lot of bad things are happening..
to me..
and to many of my friends..
everyones caught up in their situations..
and i wish i could help them..
i wish i could help myself..
some people find it hard to openly express how they feel..
afraid, maybe.. or just proud.. which is only human to do..
some try to feel better by laughing and telling jokes.. in vain..
and some just dont want to let other people down..
which is good.. but not right..
because everything stays inside..
but like what i said in my previous post..
i live my life an open book..
and i dont think its wrong to tell someone i feel down..
its.. only human.. after all..
wel, thats that..
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today was quite a day..
woke up early..
crazy.. haha..
had to fry lots of stuf for youth..
meat balls, nuggets, sausages..
fried and fried and fried..
but it was fun.. got my mind off alot..
look, i even botherd to take a picture..
fruits of labour.. (yes, im proud.. leave me alone.. lol..)
we set up the 'refreshments' late..
but we saw everyone coming.. they got the hint.. lol..
messed up the drinks tho,
haha.. forgot to bring the container..
so we called kat.. btw, thanks kat..
she had a little collapsible one..
but it had a whole at the bottom..
we learnt that the hard way.. yeah..
thanks kat..
but at the end, drinks were served.. :)
well.. more or less..
everything was prepared in a rush.. messed up through the whole thing..
love it when that happens..
because amidst all the panic and excitement theres so much fun
haha..
its not that i dont feel down now..
im not trying to hide or cover it up..
but it feels good, to give.. you know?
watching them eat.. chat.. laugh..
gets me everytime..
i wish i was there sometimes, but i think my place is behind the counter..
threw in a bottle of thai chilli 2..
that sold out fast..
i love thai chilli..
because a lot of bad things are happening..
to me..
and to many of my friends..
everyones caught up in their situations..
and i wish i could help them..
i wish i could help myself..
some people find it hard to openly express how they feel..
afraid, maybe.. or just proud.. which is only human to do..
some try to feel better by laughing and telling jokes.. in vain..
and some just dont want to let other people down..
which is good.. but not right..
because everything stays inside..
but like what i said in my previous post..
i live my life an open book..
and i dont think its wrong to tell someone i feel down..
its.. only human.. after all..
wel, thats that..
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today was quite a day..
woke up early..
crazy.. haha..
had to fry lots of stuf for youth..
meat balls, nuggets, sausages..
fried and fried and fried..
but it was fun.. got my mind off alot..
look, i even botherd to take a picture..
fruits of labour.. (yes, im proud.. leave me alone.. lol..)
we set up the 'refreshments' late..
but we saw everyone coming.. they got the hint.. lol..
messed up the drinks tho,
haha.. forgot to bring the container..
so we called kat.. btw, thanks kat..
she had a little collapsible one..
but it had a whole at the bottom..
we learnt that the hard way.. yeah..
thanks kat..
but at the end, drinks were served.. :)
well.. more or less..
everything was prepared in a rush.. messed up through the whole thing..
love it when that happens..
because amidst all the panic and excitement theres so much fun
haha..
its not that i dont feel down now..
im not trying to hide or cover it up..
but it feels good, to give.. you know?
watching them eat.. chat.. laugh..
gets me everytime..
i wish i was there sometimes, but i think my place is behind the counter..
threw in a bottle of thai chilli 2..
that sold out fast..
i love thai chilli..
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
Hi, i just woke up..
i just remembered why i chose this as a title for my blog..
lol..
today, they gathered all the CIMP students 2 vote.. for student council posts..
it was alright.. students tried to INSPIRE and FIRE UP the crowd, who evidently couldnt care less
and after SO so many - boring speeches.. the time came to vote..
and the time to vote passed..
end of story.. haha.. THAT bad..
Btw, im studyin in Sunway University College.. taking english, accountings and data management in CIMP (canadian international matriculation programme, if you must know..) its been fun.. some wat..
anyways,
i remembered i promised myself to get back up from procrastination and go make friends..
interact and socialize..
'waking up' from being socially lazy..
Cutting the long story short.. i went to my 8th skool fed up of making new friends.. so i decided to lay low, just keeping to my classmates..
7 skools of making and leaving friends isnt great fun, you know.. seriously..
EMOTIONALLY DRAINING..
so i told myself 2 rest and save it for college..
after all ill know them for only, wat? 2 years?
Back to the present..
Just started college, almost 3 weeks..
i guess i owe it to myself to make an initiative to know people.. haha..
tryin to join the Hiking and Treking Club.. but it COSTS.. and ive got a feelin ill hv to fork money from my own pocket..
maybe Basketball..(gleefully) maybe..
im not good tho.. probly make a mess.. but i love the game...
and my fingers are itching..
Wonder if they had some kinda performance arts club or drama or something.. id do that pretty well.. (not tryin to brag.. )
Wel, thats my attempt to 'wake up', im kinda stil in the process.. but ive met a few interesting people so far.. not meaning the classmates youre forced to be with, mind you..
PS: how did i colour the text? i mean.. get the toolbar on and all.. i lost it n cant seem to get it back.. now evrything looks boring.. :(
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ever missed something you gave up, then saw wat others had and realize that wat you missed wasnt reali that great at all?
just a pondering..
lol..
today, they gathered all the CIMP students 2 vote.. for student council posts..
it was alright.. students tried to INSPIRE and FIRE UP the crowd, who evidently couldnt care less
and after SO so many - boring speeches.. the time came to vote..
and the time to vote passed..
end of story.. haha.. THAT bad..
Btw, im studyin in Sunway University College.. taking english, accountings and data management in CIMP (canadian international matriculation programme, if you must know..) its been fun.. some wat..
anyways,
i remembered i promised myself to get back up from procrastination and go make friends..
interact and socialize..
'waking up' from being socially lazy..
Cutting the long story short.. i went to my 8th skool fed up of making new friends.. so i decided to lay low, just keeping to my classmates..
7 skools of making and leaving friends isnt great fun, you know.. seriously..
EMOTIONALLY DRAINING..
so i told myself 2 rest and save it for college..
after all ill know them for only, wat? 2 years?
Back to the present..
Just started college, almost 3 weeks..
i guess i owe it to myself to make an initiative to know people.. haha..
tryin to join the Hiking and Treking Club.. but it COSTS.. and ive got a feelin ill hv to fork money from my own pocket..
maybe Basketball..(gleefully) maybe..
im not good tho.. probly make a mess.. but i love the game...
and my fingers are itching..
Wonder if they had some kinda performance arts club or drama or something.. id do that pretty well.. (not tryin to brag.. )
Wel, thats my attempt to 'wake up', im kinda stil in the process.. but ive met a few interesting people so far.. not meaning the classmates youre forced to be with, mind you..
PS: how did i colour the text? i mean.. get the toolbar on and all.. i lost it n cant seem to get it back.. now evrything looks boring.. :(
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ever missed something you gave up, then saw wat others had and realize that wat you missed wasnt reali that great at all?
just a pondering..
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