feelings...

haih

im so mixed now...

i feel happy..

coz so many ppl r back..

my sis, ashley, charmaine, lauranne, um.. sze rong..

michelle.. thats all i can remember at the moment.. sry if i misd any1 out..

Thank God 4 frens 2..

especially those CW ppl ive known 4eva.. shud hv taken more time 2 no each 1 a lil more..

i feel tired...

its after christmas n so much 4 the christmas spirit...

well, its not that i hate it.. its just that it really gets kinda routine sometimes..

or

maybe its just me, i duno.. u tel me..

i feel scared...

2mrw im climbing Gunung Nuang...

ive done it b4... but dis time im carryin a 10kg load

(well, suppose 2.. anyways..)

n i hvnt packed.. haihz...

but what im really afraid is doing Gunung Tahan on Feb...

the thing is.. its not gona b the usual 4 day upward hike with no water source save a lil brooke..

were gona play hero n decend a longer way.. 2 top it all of, we'll even take the detour 2 the waterfall.. 9 DAYS all 2gather..

Tahan has always been my dream.. seriously..

its just that i nvr imagined accomplishing it this way..

i feel um... wierd..

well, someone actually found my blog..

n if he/she s reading it now.. u might realize now that im talkin bout u...

i feel exposed.. striped.. naked..

my hearts thoughts all pourd out.. now read by U?

think ill change my url..

n my hp

n my ic

n my adress

hell, its just a couple of posts.. haha

i feel tired.. (again)

so many emotions concentrated 2gather..

its just unhealthy.. i no..

guess im just bad at expressin how i feel..

guess its just a guy thing.. or izit just ME?

do i need help?

well.. my aunts a psychiatrist.. ill c her..

if u need me

ill b in Taman Bahagia..

hey blogging IS therapeutic..

"The youth are 2 rash 2 realize that certain things are impossible..

thats why they accomplish them anyways..."

Ok, im awake now..

So.. prom ws.. kinda boring.. honestly la..
performances sucked, in exception for a few..
but the dj ws good..
yet wat can u xpect la.. high skool onli wat..
+ yi han organized it.. so wateva la..
i think the momentum picked up more 2wrds the 2nd half of the nite..
k la.. it ended.. um.. nicely..?

omega party ws beta...
guess its coz i hate big crowds.. n i knew these ppl (well enuf, i think..)
um.. v (tried to) sing christmas carols..
den.. eat so much coz every1 brought a lot of stuf...
den.. spen a lot of time givin testimonies.. which ws really unusual..
(ok im gona go into pastor mode..)

what i like bout this incident ws that it showd strongly the sense of unity v had.
being unafraid 2 share things in this smaller group n showin hu v really r without social fears..
1 thing that also impressed me ws the maturity of omega that either suprisingly grew this year
or has onli been displayed on that day..
another thing continuously mentioned is the problem of unity in the church (in this case: calvary youth...) which is extremely evident especially 2 us, having been in Christ Ambassadors for the longest time..
(ok.. im gettin sleepy again..)

well, we had a suprise party 4 ching yesterday..
of all places.. in a tuition centre...!
atleast i end my high skool life hvin met Terry Tee The Tuitor..
My mom tot v had sex there... serious..
um, yeah.. thats it.. i guess..

oh yeah.. n the JLSA thing.. its an award i got in rangers..
nothing big la.. just 1ted 2 bangga abit.. (2 my imaginary reader, yes, im aware...)
it stands 4 'junior leader service award'..
i think if every1 got awards for wat they did in church.. every1 wud b serving A LOT more..
then again.. every1 wud be serving just 4 the medals, instead of 4 God..
i guess thats y i dun really care bout this award..

ok la.. im seriously sorry.. pics 2mrw k?
i dun expect an "its ok, i understand" coz
1. i dun deserve it...
2. theres nobody reading anyways...

Good nite.. nobody...

PROM, omega party n Chings thing... n my JLSA

HAIHZ.. sry, tired la..
i no ive been dragin this post like 4eva but.. im so sleepy now..
Promise ill fill it up 2mrw, k? wif lots of pics 2..

Gnite, imaginary (interested) reader..

A break from hibernation..

well not, really.. lifes been more of the opposite..

ive been SO bz wif SO many things...
Its been i-dunno-how-long since the last post

Well.. first i repainted my porch..

my utmost PRIDE..
leather brown... :P

hu died? lol.. ME

love this pic..

then theres the GRACE YOUTH CAMP 07...

thats about 3000 ppl

im aroun the right

YEAH !! my team, v came in 1st..

c the hamper?

haha, yeah they called it MEIN KREUZ.. its german..

suppose 2 mean MY CROSS.. c the parallel?

Anyways, the camp ws great.. the ppl ws great.. God was great.. wat can i say?

winning means gettin the most money at the end of the day

(by sucking up 2 the so-called billionaires)

V basically won coz 5 of us guys got 2gather n sang carols 2 all of them..

C the pilot uniform? v even offered 'flights' everywhere..

WEll, other than that, there was the real 'camp at Hulu tamu wif the Rangers..

but no pix :(

if u think that isnt enuf.. theres PROM 2day n the OMEGA party dis sat..

n then theres CHRISTMAS !!! shit, hvnt done my shoping...

anyways, gtg.. getin ready 4 prom.. BTW, im dateless.. any takers?

didn think so..

BYE, imaginary readers..

Well, not really.. but anyways..

OK, im completely aware that im probably talkin 2 no1 right now but..

TADAA !

heres my blog...

Well, hving been somewat ignorant about wats happening in the world,

i m now (officially) waking up frm hibernation n 2 those hu think im the first Malaysian 'living dead', im gona prove u wrong..

hence the blog..

im a brutally honest person (quoting frm a compliment/critic of a fren)

So ill admit that i dun realy no wats a blog,

let alone how 2 use it..

N i realy dont get the concept of 1...

Anyways, yeah, slowly learn la..

k, i probably written enuf 2 bore u 2 death......

then again, im talkin 2 no1.... haha.. i feel lifeless

Ok, time 4 a lil nap... bye, imaginary reader...