Hi, i just woke up...

Gravity

2010-05-24T20:41:00.002+08:00

i am coming to terms with myself.
tying up some loose ends, and leaving the rest to fray.
but im at peace
amidst an ever present night of uncertainty
i am growing sure of myself
adapting and accepting that this is going to be me

its like a foreign object puncturing your skin
the pain lasts so long
until your skin grows around it
and learns to embrace it

i still cant see a light this way
or, its just as dim as anywhere else
and i dont know how many will read this
another ore unrefined
or unrecycled waste

i hope you see this
and no dont think its someone else
because theres no escaping it

theres a consequence at either outcomes
but i, for one, rather die living this through
than live not knowing how else i'd die

this is raw,
at its purest form
because there isnt many places for this anymore.

My shoulders hurt. really really bad.
so bad that ive considered finding a doctor.
im tired of carrying and lifting up
i feel an age beyond my years
thoughts weigh on my eyes
in my heart
on my shoulders

Still, aging is timeless
through time you see how many things evolve
Yet, in time, you realize what little changes

but no,
fretting does no ill or good.
it is only justified when action is accompanied
Rise. despite age despite anger despite agony
because,
when you accomplish despite everything you are
you accomplish with God

From the abundance of the heart, the mouth speaks.

Whats bean up...

2010-03-12T01:57:00.003+08:00

funny how "whats been down" has the same meaning....

Was having a conversation with a friend of mine the other day...
about the purpose of life, yeah... we go deep...

Ming: have you asked God whats your purpose in life?
Me: (asks God...)yeah...
Ming: and?
Me: He laughing and saying that if He chose to answer that, the answer would have been out long ago and there wouldnt be any point in living anymore...
Ming: lol...

As of now in terms of purpose, Id say that if you want to live contented, find what you truly love and persue it. and finding it's the hardest part...
We concluded that there couldnt be a specific purpose for all of us, and even if there was... it would be quite general...

Then we got into the relationships topic.
how detachment causes people to find quick replacements or distractions when the wisest choice would be to learn from ones experiences
How relationships are made and meant to be permanent

"When you think about it, realizing the purpose of "relationships" we have will motivate you to search ever for that one and only person, to whom you give your all to keep and build a beautiful story with that ultimately leads to, but not ends at, the altars of God."

The question of what am i looking for in a.... partner has been constantly popping up in my head... hahaa... deduce what you will from that...

As of Now, ive been hanging around curve for 2 whole days straight..
Thought i had the morning shift yesterday, turned out to be night instead...
today i had morning shift, but had to stay on coz someone was unavailable
So i took 4 shots of expresso.

you know, caffiene only shoots to your heart
and i think it gives you a bloodrush to your brain
THATS why if your tired, coffee only keeps you awake
not stronger. learned through experience...

I should write a book on this...

Inspired by caffiene,
Hansel

The Last Week of Febuary

2010-02-25T01:27:00.005+08:00

is a killer...

shifts and meetings and farewells and appointments

emotionally too...

Schedule's jam packed

Its between Wednesday and Thursday now... currently, can survive la...

You know, people always ask how can a person be so busy, yet have time to blog/facebook...
Well i do that, and i guess its to compensate all the stress, y'know?

for me its like a reward, and if i dont do that and go straight to bed, lagi cannot work later...
Hence, the blogging.
Its me-time... like how some people must dig into their favourite book, or eat something(or coffeee... ), or call a special someone..

But works good,
One month in and Coffee Bean's been friendly, (which is the F in "FROTH")
Notice how if you take away the F, its ROTH... and it sounds like Wrath...
Yeah... that reminds me of my boss...

I've a bunch of SPM leaving colleagues (4 in all? i think..), a considerably pro barista who's my age... and a bunch of strict but can-joke-with bosses
Take my word, it is almost NEVER dull in the kitchen...
I enjoy work... :P yeap...

ANd and and... proudly, i can tell the diff between Machiatos and Lattes and Cappuccino (Can even spell it right ;) ) and ofcourse expresso... from Long blacks to flat whites...

So as of now...
Im officially a barista :) thats a tick off "Things to do before i die" list...
And Mabel Soo's in Adelaide...
so THAT sucks...
Managed to let go a bit of the past...
and realized friends are worth keeping after all...
Church schedule's been..... altered....
and the responsibilities aree..... like that la...
And i MIGHT be getting a new ride..
Might...

Randomly, have you ever stayed up till the sun rose?
not wake up before dawn k.. actually not sleep till the next day...
i kinda like the feeling it gives... its like, witnessing birth...

its a solemn moment, yet makes you want run out and bask in the light... just to it get it while its fresh...

And in that i really get why dawn is closely related to hope... if you struggled to keep awake long enough, or have assignments to do till 7am... you'll know what i mean...

Without Wax,
Hansel
25Feb

Belief

2010-01-25T20:06:00.006+08:00

There was once a boy who had a bad past,
Because of which, he hurt himself,
And this troubled his father,

So he went to see a doctor and begged,
"Please, if you can, heal my son."

"If I can??"

The specialist, clearly irritated, replied:
"Sir, what DO you believe is possible?"

Immediately the boy's father exclaimed,

"I DO believe; help me overcome my unbelief!" - Mark 6:24

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Belief.
Its a word has been constantly in and out of my head.
Come to think of it, it maybe from God...

So much comes out of how much one believes in himself.
and it brings confidence, or otherwise
and hope, or fear.

its like, a total doubtless acceptance that something is true. Conviction.
The web defines it as: any cognitive content held as true
What you believe structures your thoughts and actions, attitudes and motivations.

"Common sense is the collection of prejudices acquired by age eighteen."

Belief, or Epistemology (lol, pronounced: A-'Piss-Them-All'-ogy... the scientific study of knowledge and belief),

---

John Mayer also wrote about Belief in the album, 'Continuum',

Amidst the riffs, he sings:

"Belief is a beautiful armor

But makes for the heaviest sword

Like punching under water
You never can hit who you're trying for

We're never gonna win the world

We're never gonna stop the war

We're never gonna beat this

If belief is what we're fighting for"

Nice song, if you're into blues, listen to it...
A little morbid on the lyrics though.

He explains, later, that he thinks that it is futile to replace someones belief with another. "The only way that anybody can change a belief is internally."

True. Circumstances like accidents, inter-religious debates, and abuse have been known to dramatically change what a person believes in.

"Everyone believes...

From emptiness to everything"

Gavin DeGraw also has a song with the same title, giving belief a more protagonist-ic approach.

dedicated his to tsunami victims.

---

I find it hard to believe in myself. Lack of confidence, maybe. But its been always easier when someones believing in me instead. maybe its reassuring...

Ah, its just decisions that i've got to make. I seem to be going in circles, its fun... Till the nausea hits. One minute its like, "screw the world, this is what i want", next, "wait, is this really going to work?". But hell, what doesnt kill you makes you stronger, right? So bring on the nausea...

Lets talk bout Allah...

2010-01-12T00:42:00.010+08:00

Oh, please don't throw a Molotov cocktail and incinerate my blog... smirk...

Everyone (assumably) knows bout the church burnings/vandalism that's been going on around here... but for the ignorant, thus ends your bliss ;)

As of today, (Disclaimer: only as far as I've heard...) 8 churches have been burnt via homemade Molotov cocktails, a number of pastor's cars splashed with black/red paint, and rumors of people breaking into cars with signs of Christianity are spreading. Cause? A Catholic published an article and called his God, 'Allah'. Naturally, there are people of another faith who would feel offended. It was brought to court, which in turn ruled in the publisher's favour. Even more disappointment.. mhmm...

---

Technically, the Arabic word 'Allah' and the Hebrew name for their God 'Aleim' (whom we now popularly spell 'Elohim') came from the same root Semitic word, 'Al'/'El'. So Islamic authorities cant actually claim the word 'Allah' to represent the Islamic God. That, adding to the fact that Allah is defined as 'the one God' or a mono-theistic God in most middle-eastern countries (possibly ALL other countries), makes one really wonder "Who really IS in the right?".

None the less, for convenience sake it would have been much simpler to keep things the way it was. its so much easier to stick with God, or even Tuhan (which, if you don't know, is God, mono- or poly-theistic). Stirring up a storm in a teacup? Well, i guess if something isn't right, someone has to try fixing it.

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So how should we respond? (as Christians i mean... and as not to make this post any more cheong hei, we'll use bullet points):

- Understand. Hey, what if Hindus or Muslims start calling their god Yahweh, or Jehovah? Kinda feels a little insulting right? + Allah has always been a personal name for the God Malays worship. faham faham la...
- Think. Please don't act rashly, whatever you do. Be it burning a mosque, talking about this issue in public, or things like drinking and the language you use... the way people see it: You=Christian
- Act. Be ready to give an answer to those who question your faith. Not offensively, but be in the know and prepared to relate to those of other faiths. For God's sake, don't start a fight! And please, do pray always for all Malaysians.

Its not a time to celebrate, but lets stand confident and see things in Gods eyes.

---

Personally, i feel that Malaysia has really grown and matured. Look, 30 years back, if someone burned a place of worship, race riots would start and many people will kill more people and lots would die and their kids would kill more people etc..

Today, assuming (as everyone are) that the culprit are Muslim extremist, its so very touching and assuring to find what, 130 Muslim NGOs? All volunteering to ensure the Church's (in capital, because it means all of us :) safety.

Thank God :)
Hansel

12Jan10

THE GAME

2010-01-02T23:56:00.002+08:00

The Game is an abstract concept.
It involves no tangible objects, nor is it played on any physical medium.
It exists in the minds of those who play it, and it never ends.
That's right, you can never win The Game (though this is debatable).

In order to lose the Game, you have to think about the game.
Upon thinking about the Game, you lose and must announce that you've lost.
This spreads the game to new people and forces others to lose the game.

So, you are now playing the Game.

You will soon forget about this definition, and maybe sometime soon be reminded of it somehow, thereby losing the game.

And, After All...

2009-12-22T02:58:00.006+08:00

After all the mannequin pushing in 1st-Aid course...

2Artificial Ventilations + 15Chest Compressions
Now you can save a life too! Not...

Well, the Royal Rangers roped in St. John's Amblance to give a crash course on 1st-Aid

Me, Kester, Lily, Steph, shoulder...

kinda look real, right??

To Maniam, the instructor.. Sir, sometimes you just talk utter nonsense... sometimes you sound like an old man (granted, you ARE 65..) who's got nothing better to do than talk rubbish to little kids who would believe you anyways... sometimes, the things you talk about... well, lets just say its not right to say those things in church.
But whether you read this or not, Thanks! somehow, the stupidity of everything you said stuck, and, upon contemplation... has significant meaning.. mostly though the meanings arent what you intended, im sure... but still, decades of saving lives is an inspiration to us all. God bless!

Preacher of healing

And thank God, everyone passed… I honestly doubted myself k… hahaa..

After all the wood burnt in the HeART club Council Fire

This was another quickie Council fire done for the HeART club members in Calvaryland
Theme: Christmas. Kah Leong prepared a whole Councilfire plan by himself, and yeah... i think it turned out alright...

Makan...

Then work...

Then makan again...

Kids had fun with the games and skits and i guess the Cmdrs did too...

After all the awards given out in the COA

Thank God for a sore/sexy voice to Emcee the COA.. haha...
And thank God for making everything run smoothly, other than the little hiccup at the end...

The slideshow presentation Kester made really got to me… So much was done this year, it feels like 2 years in one...

Camporama
Setting up RR in Sri Lanka and Indonesia
Call of Duty & DR & HeART club Council fires
DR/AR camp
Calvary Carnival booths
1st Aid course

That's all I can think of now…
Thank God la…

After all the emotional alter calls of Youth Camp'09: Emerge

To quote Kerby, "this camp was anything but hype"

Quite true, this camp was much to my personal liking. Honest to its core.
God did an amazing job through Mike Pilavachi, i (as well as everyone else, im sure) learnt not to rely on how much we pray, or how much the speaker actually says…
But speak little, and wait more… another point much to my liking…

As for a first-aider's PoV, Thank God no one died… LOL… that is enough, really…
Quite draining job la... hope i didnt like.. give wrong medicine... gg wei...
Be grateful la…

After all the beautifully marinated and barbequed lamb/RR LG Christmas Fellowship

So we had this makan thing at Cmdr Lily's poolside…
A few Cmdrs and their spouses, and kids…
A bunch of us younger Cmdrs
And, yes… the lamb…
oh, the lamb... hahahaa

Lily's husband, John marinated them...
He's secret? Rojak every sauce you can find… yeah, right…

Other than that, Tim single-handedly prepared games, songs, and other activities to keep us busy… good job there…
Nice to see people talking and the kids mixing and all that…
And the swimming was fun too… major de-stressing points there…

After all... there was Zombieland!

Yess… after all the blood, sweat and tears… after all the aches, pains and strains… and, after all
the planning, contemplating and worrying
Ngeow and I unwound ourselves with sushi and a movie anyone can laugh at (whether it turns out to be good or bad)…

Confession I have never been inside a restaurant with a conveyor belt since… 10? Well, let's just say the cost was far beyond expectation…. Lol…

But, Zombieland was too, faaarrr beyond expectations…
Comedy, gore, romance, horror all blended nicely together… Movies like this prove that fun movies can be great too...

Rotten tomatoes gave it an 86 percent? That, my mainstream-following friends, is 3% higher than Avatar… Only it actually premiered in Oct…
Its time to nut up, or shut up. lol...

22Dec

Jeremiah 15:15-20

2009-12-07T15:19:00.004+08:00

15 You understand, O LORD;

remember me and care for me.

Avenge me on my persecutors.

You are long-suffering—do not take me away;

think of how I suffer reproach for your sake.

16 When your words came, I ate them;

they were my joy and my heart's delight,

for I bear your name,

O LORD God Almighty.

17 I never sat in the company of revelers,

never made merry with them;

I sat alone because your hand was on me

and you had filled me with indignation.

18 Why is my pain unending

and my wound grievous and incurable?

Will you be to me like a deceptive brook,

like a spring that fails?

19 Therefore this is what the LORD says:

"If you repent, I will restore you

that you may serve me;

if you utter worthy, not worthless, words,

you will be my spokesman.

Let this people turn to you,

but you must not turn to them.

20 I will make you a wall to this people,

a fortified wall of bronze;

they will fight against you

but will not overcome you,

for I am with you

to rescue and save you,"

declares the LORD.

7Dec09

1524

XXV

2009-11-26T00:46:00.006+08:00

Its the 25th,
Gona be Christmas in a month's time
and its been a month since my birthday
Pablo Picasso, Georges Bizet & Johann Strauss celebrated theirs a month ago too...
Oh, not forgetting Claryn Chong too

25 cents makes a complete quater
and it takes 25 points to win a volleyball match
25 is the size of a full roster in major league baseball
Pachisi, a national Indian board game, means 25

A silver anniversary takes 25 years of marriage
There are 25 points in Hitler's Nazi party
and there are 25 nabi's and rasul's chosen by Allah in Islam
25 divided by 5 equals 14
25 characters needed for Microsoft Office product key

The height of Solomon's temple was 25 cubits
Ezekiel's temple gate was 25 cubits wide
Equals the sum of the first 5 odd numbers (1+3+5+7+9)

Equals 3+4+5+6+7
Equals a square number which is the sum of two square numbers

Well, none of this really matters anyways...

Its funny how people (lol.. cant decide to use 'you' or 'i') look for significance in the littlest things.
how... WE.. try to find ourselves either in the core fragments that define our existance (like names, birth dates, being 6feet or blonde), or things completely random

Common ground between these two things seem to be incontrolable, definitive and distinctive
Its something that differentiates us, includes us, and not decided by us
Maybe when it seems like figuring out what our big picture looks like feels too massive we look to lesser things or things that has always been there

been thinking lots on this whole identity topic lately,
wondering what youl get if you strip off all the crap in life
searching for who you truly are

"In all truth..."
Jesus said that, 25 times in the the book of John

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Other than that,

Penang trip was quite fun,

Dare say i enjoyed myself more than i expected...

Too lazy to take pics tho, just wanted to unwind...

Guess i'll never eat dimsum, salted chicken, or char kuey teow the same way again.

Ever.

Oh, cant wait for the next XXV

25Nov09

2345

Second 2 Yourself

2009-11-17T03:21:00.007+08:00

hey, hows it been?
listening to Renegade fighter-Zed

its funny looking at life from a second person point of view, huh? Think about it. you get to judge yourself, all the wrongs and rights, and be completely neutral. AND you don't get too emotionally attached to what happens to you. as in if something bad happens you just say, "oh man, tough luck..." and the feelings swept away just like that. yeah, i wish.

But in a sense, you don't get too much sorrow that you get hung over, not too much joy that you get proud, not too much love that you get obsessed.
flip side, you don't get to actually savour any of it, either. inhuman?

wonder, if you split youre conscience, between the person who lives your life and the person who looks at it, who would you be, really? between a micro and macro point of view = identity crisis?

kinda crooked way to live... but its funny coz...
nah, i wont say why...
(and i know I'll sound creepy, but trust me, its for the best...)

listening to Inside of Love... nice one, that..
speaking of funny
know whats funny?
trends.

just thinking of the effects of blogs and myspace and facebook on us in the long run...
how would people turn out after 30 years of Facebook?

think of the kids now exposed to so much and trying to grow up so fast...
how are our kids gonna turn out?

listening to... oh, i don't know, but its old skool and has a wicked bass riff...

okay, okay.. if you really want something bluntly funny here's one:
Yo mama sooo fat, when she wears a yellow raincoat, guys come up to her and say,
"Mak Cik!!! ada Digi spuluh Ringgit?"

check it out, man... m'sian yo mama joke..
anyways, this counts as a post la.. settle..

Going to Penang on Wed, don't know if I'm going to enjoy it... hm... see how la...
oh, wonder if Andrews still there...

listening to belle and sebastian's We Rule the School.
cant tell you how much i like this, relaxing... :)

17Nov09
0359

an eve of epiphany

2009-10-20T14:40:00.004+08:00

Have you been close to death before?
to realize that all you lived for could be wiped away
that the few second you were in could have been your last?

That heartbeat. that helplessness. that confusion. that realization. that fear.

At that point, you honestly struggle to live
at that point where it isn't a joke anymore
at that point where you could die

At that point, life is real because its moving away from you
quicker than how time slothfully drags it
and you have to try to tighten your grip or choose to let it go

Like any prey of a predator, like any freak accident, like everyone else from old age.
to be at the point where you could finally find out what happens next.
or if anything will happen at all

I have.

Was watching this YouTube about a scuba diver tried to sink to the bottom, just for sport.
it was from a vidcam which he held as he sank.
it was seen from a point-of-view perspective
and it showed how he reached the bottom
got tangled in the sand
and died.

You remember the things you were suppose to do
you regret the things you were suppose to say
you think of the people who matter
because they suddenly don't anymore

When you face death, your face changes a little
it ages a little, solemnise a little, it grows older
you may even say it starts to look like death himself
well, maybe a little

Exhale

2009-10-08T22:36:00.010+08:00

"Nobody said it was easy,
It's such a shame for us to part.
Nobody said it was easy,
No one ever said it would be this hard.
Oh take me back to the start."
- The Scientist

I'm feeling veryyyy... heavy...
tired i guess
discouraged partially tons of work piling up and I've lost all motivation
have i never had it in the first place
theres no will to continue this game
its a pointless unified march
from running to persistent jogging to stray walking to dragging your feet in circles
around a tree hoping for a finish line or a pit stop
and fatigue just caught up again
I'm pulled and stretched and drained
I'm disappointed and frustrated
at myself for not doing as i should not as well as i can
what am i suppose to do
who am i supposedly
where do i go from here
who do i become
mere flesh wounds and blood
and the feeling of mortality
human
I'm frustrated at my own disability
at how blind i am
at how crippled i am
wretched strength of self-reliance
useless

He's really got me this time
hit when i hurt
so take me higher
pray 4 me pls?

"Tears stream, down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face and I..."
- Fix You

"In a bullet proof vest
With the windows all closed
I'll be doing my best
I'll see you soon
In a telescope lens
And when all you want is friends
I'll see you soon"
-See You Soon

Maan.. listening to Coldplay classics at 2am feels like that seaming hot chocolate (not coffee, mind you... hot chocolate) on a rainy day... warm..
very chicken-soup-for-the-soul... ever read that one?

"Now when you work out where to draw the line
You're guess is as good as mine"
- God put a Smile on Your Face

speaking of coffee... i am going to officially try to cut down on my caffeine intake... everything caffeine... so if you see me taking something significantly caffeinated, shout: "HANSEL, YOU"RE TAKING SOMETHING SIGNIFICANTLY CAFFEINATED!!!"

You know what i hate?
bad first impressions
perceptions, misconceptions
did you know?
you dont evaluate a person at the time she smiles at you or by the first 5 words he says
by the first 12 second of you noticing the person, youve already decided whether you like the person or not.
ridiculous.
so what if i look stuck up or proud or shy or arrogant?
is that who i am? do you know me?
i have so many people telling me, "hey you know, last time i really though you were so cocky. never talk to anyone some more..."
and we'll laugh about it coz the only reason they can tell me that is coz im not
dont judge a freaking durian by its spikes man... frustrating.
try looking past everyone physically and find out each person for who he is
despite obesity despite ugliness despite thatirritatinghabit despite faceproblems
if you cant, find one good thing about him and focus all you can on it
then maybe you get a glimpse of how Jesus sees each and every one of us.
(note: lol.. im not refering to myself evrytime i use 'him' k? i mean generally everyone 'him'.. its just coz if i use 'her', you might get the wrong idea, get it? haha...)

"What if I got it wrong
And no poem or song
Could put right what I got wrong
Or make you feel I belong"
- What If?

Stumbled on these few links, you might find interesting... hehe..

1) the national blogroll?

I got mine signed up, go check it out...haha..

they even have blog (popularity) levels..

2) this girl from SG started a clothes/assesories line
named after me... wohoo!!

JK la, i duno her... its named after her dog, apparently...

"Oh, what good is it to live
With nothing left to give
Forget but not forgive
Not loving all you see"
-Swallowed in the Sea

Remember that one? i made a video of that song while in CIMP... still very proud of it, haha..
try to upload into blogger/youtube someday...
yup, thats the end of my (emo?) post...

"Look at the stars,
Look how they shine for you,
And everything you do,
Yeah, they were all... "
- Yellow :)

Berkelah Falls (Picnic Falls)

2009-09-24T01:20:00.005+08:00

Im not crazy, im just a little un

2009-09-11T11:27:00.012+08:00

Well, i guess i SHOULD be saying something...
Lots have been going on since the last post
its been... trying times...
and rewarding too...

uh... let get to the pics... HAha..
Notice i hvnt been adding much lately..

Ranger Kids Night Out! (21/8/09?)

Good fun la.. when was the last time you flew a kite?
Rephrase: when was the last time you MADE a kite and flew it..?

These kids did man...
Good to see combined effort between Calvary and Grace PJ RR...
+ We had Barbecue NUMBER ONE... courtesy of SamSoongs might-be-famous-in-the-distant-future recipe sauce

I present future-heart-melter Emil

(cmdr trained and approved ;) )

Soong taking off...

(As in flying taking off, not taking off as in.. you know..)

This one was all smiles running everywhere...

Bleahh...

Phillip flying the pink

Then there was..

Alpha’s free cell weekend (29/8/09):

We had car wash... And um.. Obstacle course with chairs
And treasure hunt... mostly thanks to Esther
(Get well soon!)

Oh and pizzaaa and Big Apple and drinks courtesy of JonYee
Love how they had fun...
Theres something about giving that makes you feel... fulfilled...
(Sry no pics here... 2 busy planning... :P)

Day after that was...

DR Camp:Superhero (30/8/09):

Also no pics... VERY busy planning
But basically highlights were (yeah, cut it short la... lazy to type already...):

-Watching Jupiter and the moon up close
-Shooting water bottle rockets
-Shooting potatoes... (no, seriously...) using Sam Gibbs’s “Spud-a-kiss”...
-Playing games with food dye (is awesome)
-Barbecue NUMBER TWO

Awesome la... how come i never got to do these sort of things at their age?

CY Campfire – Call of Duty (5/9/09):

Another awesome event
Headed there early with the advance party (Ngeow, Kat, Wei Lin, and Tim) to set up the place

And took a few pics...

Before my cam died...

Termites.. (whaat? my cam died la.. thats all i got..)

Tim. Sek Fan-ing.. if you look closely he's posing.. lol!

Esther: Thats right! now you get it?

Mi-ang (Jeremy ang) thumbs up making sure everyone gets it...

Some others, who just didn't get it... lol..

We had the usual games in teams like Tangerine Marine, Nazi Lemak, Hairforce One, Squatting Squad, etc... LOL...

Personally, it was like a distant dream come true...
I have now and again (in this blog) explained what CY supposedly consist of... and it’s amazing to see everyone worshiping together (under the forest setting, ill add)

Im glad everything went well, audio for the campfire, the skit (that was VERY hot... yeah..?) and of course... the fire starting *pat shoulder*
All glory to God...

And of course, there was Barbecue NUMBER THREE...

Oh, btw... if you didn't realize (as did i), it poured that night... AFTER the campfire... thats amazing right? God even waited for all of us to get back home safe and dry first... :D

As 4 the campfire, i shall steal 1 pic from... kenny’s blog...

Awesome right?

And just recently,

5Merbau Reunite (10/9/09):

Well, i came late... i... got lost... LOL...
Coz apparently the directions were:
-Manhattan fish market, Cineleisure (opposite Laundry)
Since laundry’s at a corner, theres 2 opposite...
Yeah, basically.. I suck...

But the only thing that changed was evryone’s hair color! (and all can drive now..)
Evryone’s still the same after 2 years...
Haha.. great to see these guys again...

Hwee Ching swinging Alifs cam around

Ms President and May Yi

MagdalenA...

Shafiq

Mr i-came-all-the-way-from-Melaka-with-two-cams-just-to-see-you Alif
Awesome la bro, 2 years man... thats loong..

5 Merbau class of 2007
(- kokSam, Najwa, szeYuen, liCheng, aiLing, tienSoon)

There.. i think ive said enough for now...
haha.. till next time,

emo poetico

2009-08-25T00:21:00.011+08:00

"Has it ever occured that while we're waiting for God, God's actually waiting for us?"

you know,
ive tried to do a post like 5 times now...
and i think for now ill just drop 3 things

first up's something i learnt from Monash CF devotion the other day...
(who says people dont remember devotions i prove you wrong)

this big guy was talking about his unofficial missionary work aroun places and how he had to go (and is currently studying in) BCM. Good guy, very honest.
know what i thinks the most attractive atribute a person can display? comfortability with ones self. a person who knows and accepts who he is can be miles more attractive then an insecure person. but i digress.

well, i thought this was very interesting because its so very well constructed and relevant:

4 Problems We Face:

- Primal pain of the Heart
- Cynicism of the Mind
- Paralysis of the Will
- Over-crowding of the Soul

do ponder...

Next up is something from FB (yes, again...)
its a note i found while looking through my profile...

this really cracked me up, alone in my room...
so yeah, my old me cracks up my present me... go figure

Complete the following, tag your friends, and don't forget to tag the person who tagged you. Don't think too long for your answer, just be spontaneous!

SHE CANNOT SEE THE FOREST... Coz its 2 far away?

YOU CANNOT MAKE A SILK PURSE OUT OF... Pursed silk?

DON'T THROW THE BABY OUT... your not Michael Jackson (first thing from my head).. he's dead (2nd)

LOOSE LIPS... Taste wet..

CURIOSITY KILLED..................................................... murderer.

A WATCHED POT... tells time.

YOU CANNOT HAVE YOUR CAKE... Till i have mine?

CUT OFF YOUR NOSE TO... Cut off your hands

FOOL ME ONCE, SHAME ON YOU. FOOL ME TWICE... Youre not bad..

WHY PAY FOR THE COW WHEN... Goat is cheaper? (indian accent + shake head)

THERE IS MORE THAN ONE WAY TO.. Start a fire.. matches, lighter, flint and steel, magnifying glass, bow and drill... (hey, first thing in my mind right?)

DON'T COUNT YOUR CHICKENS... Count the cocks

BIRDS OF A FEATHER... Need more if they want to fly..

A STITCH IN TIME.. Heals all wounds..

IF AT FIRST YOU DON'T SUCCEED... At last you wont fail! lol...

THOSE WHO LIVE IN GLASS HOUSES... Cant change clothes

THE SQUEAKY WHEEL... Is squeaky clean?

WHAT'S GOOD FOR THE GOOSE... Is great for the gooses

somethings , only i get...

Akhir skali,

i was cleaning my room just now, yeah... WHOA...
and i found this piece of paper with Michaels writing on it (anyone could tell it was Michael's writting)
There was a song written on it and it was from AIM times...
(see, how old the junk i keep in my room)

i had no idea how the song went till i began to read it... then the tune sorta followed...

"It's crowded in worship today
As she slips in
Trying to fade into the faces
The girls' teasing laughter is carrying farther than they know
Farther than they know

A traveler is far away from home
He sheds his coat
And quietly sinks into the back row
The weight of their judgmental glances tells him that his chances
Are better off on the road"

Sounds familiar? Man, AIM days... great stories there ;)
oh, i can SO imagine Kat singing this...

"Jesus paid much too high a price
For us to pick and choose who should come
We are the Body of Christ" - Casting Crowns

I needed this, maybe you do too...

Nehemiah 8:10
This day is sacred to our Lord. Do not grieve, for the joy of the LORD is your strength."

Psalm 73:26
My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.

La vie est délicat

2009-08-17T00:15:00.016+08:00

how dyou find what cannot be seen,
where dyou buy what cannot be bought;
how dyou go to places you cant,
to win the battles you once fought.
-
dyou do what your heart tells you,
how dyou refuse what you really want;
how dyou still start after so many stops,
to still stride when you're the last one.
-
how dyou give up giving up,
how dyou resolve to not end;
how dyou ascending a descending escalator,
when dyou stop being just man.
-
how dyou break life at your own hands,
with not a drop of blood seen later;
how dyou stare down a knife's brink,
how dyou tear a tissue paper.
-
how dyou give birth to ingenuity,
how dyou set growth into motion;
how dyou move the waves when you sing,
how dyou prosper a barren ocean.

2009-08-08T01:26:00.008+08:00

I plucked this out of some facebook group page...
This stuff is HILARIOUS
made my day, a few days ago...

I Appreciate Christian Pick-Up Lines
a collection of the best:

(i filtered some off coz there were too many... and you might get bored half way through)

1. "nice bible."

4. "for you i would slay two Goliaths"

5. "i would go through more than Job for you"

6. "you are perfect, except with all the sin."

8. "you are so unblemished that i would sacrifice you."

9. "what, this here? oh.. thats my study bible - it's a little bigger but i can handle the extra spiritual and physical weight."

12. "the word says 'Give drink to those who are thirsty, and feed the hungry'; how about dinner?"

13. "i didnt believe in predestination until tonight."

15. "i believe one of my ribs belongs to you."

20. "my spiritual gift is my good looks... it lifts peoples spirits"

22. "is this the transfiguration.. because you are glowing"

25. "hey.. i would work 7 years for your sister.. but i would work 7 more years for you."

27. "hey good-looking, Ecclesiastes 4:11..."

Also, if two lie down together, they will keep warm.
But how can one keep warm alone?

29. "bible-gateway happens to be my homepage."

32. "can I buy you a non-alcoholic beverage?"

36. "did i just have mud rubbed in my eyes?"

38. "now i know why Solomon had 700 wives... Because he never met you."

41. "is that a thinline, duo-tone, compact, ESV Travel Bible in your pocket"

44. ''you put the 'cute' back in persecution...'

'45. "your hair is like a flock of goats descending from Gilead"

47. "how many times do I have to walk around you to make you fall for me?"
(Think: Jericho)

48. "how would you like to join my Purpose Driven Life?"

52. "unfortunately i cant perform miracles and ive only got enough bread and fish for 2 people."

54. "let me remove my sandals before I come any closer.." (sounds familiar... hm..)

55. "lets say, hypothetically, you were married. I would send your husband to the front line against the Amorites" (think: David)

60. "if i had to choose between a romantic date with you or a night with the fellas... i would sit at home and read my bible."

61. "i really like your spirituality, it goes well with that shirt."

66. "i'm a proverbs 32 kind of guy and you're a proverbs 31 kinda woman..."
(read proverbs 31 and proverbs 32... MUST!)

72. "let me sell you an indulgence because it's a sin to look as good as you do."

73. "not a big fan of your last name, but thats cool, i can change that."

76. "i consider myself to be fisher of women. this would be referred to as "casting my net"." (for the millionth time...)

79.
"Me.
You.
Song of Songs:
The Remix."

80. "when i read philippians 4:8, i think about you."

Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.

87. "who's your favorite apostle?"

90. "let's go for a ride in my zondervan"

91. "I like to think that I'm all things to all women."

93. 'all im looking for is a Godly woman. i don't care that you're not attractive.'

94. 'you float my ark.'

97. "you make me want to be a better Christian."

100. "if you were staying for the tribulation, i would consider staying too..
but then i would probably leave."

102. "i would have asked you out to dinner, but i just put all my money in the offetory basket."

109. "the perseverance of the saints is well illustrated by the amount of time I spend talking to you."

112. "I would bring your father twelve-hundred Philistine foreskins for just one date with you."
(i know, y so many long ones...)

Finally, i think this the best part la (from the description section):

"It's crazy that so many ppl have joined, hopefully the lines are spreading far and wide.
Few quick admin matters.

1) If someone suggests the speaking in tongues pick up line once more i will personally come round to their house and get all Old Testament on them.

2) Don't post anything about these lines not working. 60% of the time they work everytime."

Any favorites? (i think no.44 is the best out of the list...)
haha or maybe a top5 list? send to comments part...

Eh disclaimer bout the verses yeah (for non-Christians and Christians alike..):
most are taken out of context. So dont take them literally...

Told in Threes

2009-07-27T20:19:00.009+08:00

Well, im in Monash now...
so yeah... updated.. lol.
Actually, ive been in for about 2 weeks now, if you include the first week's orientation...
Saw a few familliar (church) faces... Kenson, Emmy, Karl, Kevin, Ervin... Wei Lin!
Sucks being a freshie again... BUT a good excuse to not know...
Thinkin of joining the CF... maybe music... maybe ultimate... God i want more time...

Officially, its Bachelor of Business and Psychology (no its not a double... more like half of each...)
This years intake for this course was HUUGE... 6 ppl.

And that would be : Sid Simba (yes, lion king...) Melanie Tumesang Louis (whom somehow so many ppl i know know) and your truly.

Then there was Saturday...

Much needed getaway came at last...
JComs (+ a few oldies and newbie) checked out a campsite in Perting...
Nama: Horr Wai, Sasha, Jeffrey, Lily, Kah Yun, Kester, Tim, Phillip, Me...

Basically theres this camp coming up 30-31 Aug for the kids (9-14)...
lots of stuff planned... night hike and games and all...
lol... free promo!

Anyways.. Dragged along my D80 to find my inner-cameramen (waat..)
lol.. jk la, i where got D80... just used a reg point-and-shoot k...

(haha.. trying to rmbr what Mr Patrick thought us... i think it was the 9 rules of photography?)

More (and different) pics here: http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=96648&id=725092716&l=df5975ab68

Then there was MTB in Calvary YOuth

And THAT... stands for Muka Tembok Besi (face... wall... metal... metal walled face?)

And well, we were suppose to dare to be different...

and so we did... by wearing our school uniforms to church (i still fit!)...

And i dare say that (despite the irony of everyone doing the same different thing... which in turn makes everyone the same...) It was great blend of fun and learning bout Him.

Go a step furthur than furthur.

Malas nak upload pics la.. http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=96617&id=725092716&l=8ff6dff6e3

so there.. blogs a lil more colourful now...

2009-07-20T23:45:00.008+08:00

So whats so wrong about being wrong?

On a personal note, i HATE (and have come across many times, if i may add) people who don't know how to get things wrong.
Not intentionally get things wrong, but just are to afraid to try and fail trying.

(if you read the tag before this notice how i said HATE is a strong word... i don't use it often...)

First: People who don't dare move because they don't see a road/way. they just don't know how to make one.

Second: Those who only know one way of doing things, and yeah... you get the picture...

Third: People who, in a group, 1) choose not to try to accomplish something 2) then laughs when a guy takes the risk and fails, AND 3) pretends like he knew everything all along...

I have this accumulated resentment that i must express...

if you fall into any of these three categories... you have a pride/kiasu/fear/dependency problem... don't worry, problems only make you human... but please work it out... or pray... or see a mental specialist: me (yes, que to laugh...)

if you don't, check again... admittingly... i do, too, at times...

you know a guy i know once said: (i wish i could say wise guy, or even smart guy.. he only was when he said this...)

"While you're at your youth, screw up as many times as you can."
Do you know how liberating that is??

Its this constant fear, possibly of being ridiculed or maybe just the kiasu-ness that enstrangles society. All the creativity and the desire to attempt dreams are sucked out just because your dad said "You can be a doctor lawyer or engineer. Only."

So long as you're ready to pick yourself back up and learn from experience (which so happens to be the best teacher...) and not make the same mistake twice.

I mean, so what if you get rejected from a guy after plucking the balls to confess?? ('you' being a girl, ok? lets get THAT one clear...) go yum cha with your friends and laugh over it or cry with your best bud, or both (not at the same time la.. pls.. talk about emotional roller coaster man..)

What so bad about being so-so? what if you don't look perfect?
You being YOU is an attraction that'll last way longer than your make up

(btw: i cant stand people with make up... maybe its just those who don't know how to put it on...)

Listen (and when i say 'listen', I'm serious.. lol..), its when you smile wide with that pimple, people will laugh the hardest, and they WILL LAUGH. It is also then when people are most envious of you.

ps: i know i know.. there aren't enough pics in this blog are there? will work on that...
pps: should i cut out my brackets? i like how the huge font squeezes together
ppps: btw, the mj pic below was my first Photoshop project... disclaimer for the bad quality... lol...

Factual Novels - Quicky on MJ's Death

2009-07-09T01:48:00.005+08:00

The sudden death of Michael Jackson got me thinking...
Well, not really the death... more of the memorial service...

Personally, I don't really fancy the man...
Great artist and all, agreed.
But there's too much dirt on him for me..

But if you have been affected by this man as most claim, or just stayed up from 1-4am (Malaysian time) to watch people pay their last respects for the King of Pop, like i did (hey it was suppose to be greater than Elvis's or Princess Diana's funeral)... Here's a bit to chew on...

I saw 8000 people, most who did not know him personally, congregate to appreciate the life of one man.

These people did not know him. But they knew the life he lived. They only knew portions of Michael's story, and that compelled them to their standing ovations.

A song that connected to them
A charitable deed he did others couldn't
A tribulation he overcame that everyone witnessed as he lived his life in front of the lens

He lived his life in front of the camera. and everyone who watched was compelled.
His family, who undoubtedly most of what he went through in life, was obviously the most moved.

Now wait.
Take that thought. And manipulate.

1.How many more than the 8000 would gather if everyone knew his WHOLE story?
(Think everything we/they missed out: actions, words, thoughts, emotions, decisions and the motives behind each.)
2.If everyone watched your life to the detail as the above states, would as many come to your funeral as the answer to the first question? (i think everyone would be coming for everyone's funeral... absolution...)
3.(this maybe a little far fetched for some) Think of those who see your life as it is, God, angels, those in heaven or hell, Satan even... How they would laugh and cry, feel just as (or even more) compelled and moved as what we saw that night, or wait anticipatingly for each chapter to unfold... Fool's guess? or a glimpse of heaven, perhaps?

No, this isn't about the death of Michael Jackson.
Its about the story of our lives, the beautiful factual novel being penned down right now.

Hey, everyone's gonna die someday...

2009-07-06T12:28:00.006+08:00

What have you been doing recently?
i went to a watch dance competition... yeah.. LOL..

Do you ever turn your handphone off?
when the battery's low?

What happened at 10am today?
10am... its 1230 now and i just woke up... so fill me in..

When did you last cry?
why does this question ALWAYS pop up?? i dont rbmr..

Believe in Fate/Destiny?
DEFINE fate..

What do you want in life now?
Take things easy...

Do you carry an umbrella when it rains or just put up your hood?
stand under a tree..

What’s your favourite thing to do on bed?
;)

What bottoms are you wearing now?
grey shorts.

What are the nicest things in your inbox?
hotlink advertisment

Do you tend to make relationships complicated?
No.. i.. dont THINK so..

Are you wearing anything borrowed from anyone?
uh... noo..

13 . What was the last movie you caught?
transformers 2

What are you proud of ?
pride is destructive..

What does the oldest text msg in your inbox says and who is it from?
Whats with prying into my inbox?? no privacy.. anyways..
Cmdr Horr Wai: Thanks Hansel. God is Good.

What was the last song you sang out loud?
Supermassive Blackhole - MUSE

Do you have any nicknames?
ada la.. tak boleh fikir skarang..

What does the newest text msg says and who is it from?
SEE?? inbox again..
Rachel Soon: please save me a seat... Gona be late..

What time did you go to sleep last night?
last time i checked was 2...47? im guessing 3... i duno..

Are you currently happy?
ah.. I could be worse..

Who gives you the best advice?
God..

Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
Oh yeah.. :)

Who do you talked to on phone last night?
mom? she asked me what time was i gona be back... i think..

Is something bugging you right now?
Yeah

Who is the last person to make you laugh?
Wesley..

Do you like yourself?
... ok la.. caan la..

You want $5 or $10?both?
What kind of stupid question is this? (mind you i just woke up.. haha..)
Both! so i can give them to charity!

Do you think you are stupid sometimes?
heh.. sometimes? if ya keep actin' smart ya ain' gona learn nothin'

Who is your best best best friend?
WELL.. bbbf? Jesus?

What will you do if you like that boy?
slap myself bang my head against the wall and throw myself off buildings until i STOP LIKING THAT BOY..

Who are your favourite stars?
orion, stagitarius, big dipper... and ofcourse.. scorpio.. LOL..

You hate your mother sometimes in some ways?
Yeah i agree with rosanne with this one.. HATE is such a strong word.. i think i 'occasionally disagree'.. how can you hate your mom?? you.. you need counselling man..

Do you had even stead before?
even... stead.. no idea what that is..

what type of boy do you like?
i dont. if you mean THAT kinda 'like'..

Now are you single/attached?
hahaha...

Pass this tag to 10 people !
must i..? kesian la these people.. lol..

1. Timothy Lee
2. Suet
3. Michael Loon
4. Samantha Ong
5. Hannah P
6. Li Sha
7. Chloe
8. Amelia Foong
9. Lee En
10. Rachel Soon

1. Would you date number 5?
Yeah.. y not?

2. Number 2 just got in a car crash. How do you react?
HAhaha.. id probly be in the car.. driving..

3 You see number 9 with your boy/girlfriend. What do you do?
go.. and.. say hi? wait what dyou mean by 'with'...

4. You come home and your room has been ransacked by number 4.
"uh.. why my house?? "

5 Number 1 is acting weird.
oh thats just him.. he'd be acting wierd if he wasnt acting wierd..

6. Numbers 3 and 8 decide to give 10 a haircut.
there wudnt be any hair left to cut after.. hahaa..

7. Number 7 just got tickets for him/her and you to go to a concert.
Wohoo!... wait, what concert 1st..

8. Number 10 takes you to a bar.
uh.. how am i suppose to answer?

9. Number 4 has to move to the other side of the world.
get me something on your way back?

10. You and number 8 are being chased by the cops for an unknown reason.
i.. dont know..

11. Number 7 and you are sitting on the couch watching a movie when he/her wrap his/her arm around you.
haha.. Whoa..

12. Number 5 asks you out to dinner.
yeah why not?

13. Number 9 and you are sitting on a bus.
um.. we'd get to the other side...?

14. Number 6 calls you in the middle of the night because he/she can’t sleep.
id tell her shes the first to ever do that..

15. Your walking with someone and number 6 runs up and tackles you to the ground from behind.
I think... she'l be the one falling..

16. Number 1 is crying one day and you ask him/her why and it seems their boy/girlfriend has dumped them.
Everone's gona die someday.. wait. its a breakup?? wrong story..

17. Number 2 offers to bake you a meal. As you sit in the other room, the kitchen is suddenly aflame.
Id laugh my head off...

18. Number 4 comes to your door one day holding a koala.
Whats that..... dinner? brother?

19. Number 4 just got you an X-Box.
Whats the catch.......?

20. Number 9 challenges you to a children’s card game!
Why not?? people who think their so mature are infact the most immature in thinking so. so whats wrong with that?

21. Number 1 thinks he/she’s overweight.
Then i could be too..

22. Number 7 looks lonely!
ill be there for you, if you need somebody (friends theme song.. lol.. )

23. Number 2 asks you rudely to go leave her/him alone.
HahA... no wait.. you serious? HAHAa

24. Numbers 5 and 3 decide to throw a surprise party for you.
How dyou two.. know each other?? is something goin onn??

25. Number 6 decide to dye their hair black. What do you say to that?
WAKE UP. look at the mirror...

26. Number 2 tells you he/she is going to go out for a while, and then later you hear about a shooting where he/she went.
Who pissed you off THIS time?

27. You catch number 9 by him/herself, crying.
you need a shoulder?.... i think i can find one real cheap... megasale and all..

28. Numbers 1 , 3 , 5, and 6 all tackle you at once! Is it possible?
HAHa.. impossible.. nah, i think 1 and 2 enough already la..

CIMP Graduation and Camporama

2009-06-14T09:09:00.007+08:00

Its been a while, missed me? Yeah i know i dont layan you much these days..
(Yes, i know im talking to my blog, but you also la indirectly.. haha.. dont feel left out )

Its been what, months?
Anyways, lots of stuff was goin on so faham faham la.. I graduated! Finally free from CIMP.. haha..

Average aint great but hey, whats done's done right?
NO REGRETS
Its enough to get me where i want la atleast..
..... if i know where i want to go in the first place..
(How does Business Management sound...? Psychology?)

Was lookin at Suet's blog.. SO MANY pics of CIMP..
k la.. maybe miss a bit la.. a tiny bit.. maybe.
hahaha.. sheena gettin so emo..

A pinch from her side:

And then there was Camporama09
sigh... where do i begin with this one?
9 years of waiting since the last Camporama i attended (2000)
5 days of grueling labourous work under the unforgiving sun

The moment of the camp hands down goes to the Kangaroo mascot of Australia.
See, we were divided into 4 Cities, each themed with an Asian-Pacific Country.
The kangaroo mascot jumped and jumped when we assembled in the morning.
and suddenly stopped.
and dropped.
right in front of everyone.
heatstroke.

hahaha.. it was just a minor case though.. everyone in their city was laughing (which was a bit odd) and there was a particular FCF member there i recognized that continued to play with the Aussie flag... just saying what i saw peeps, just saying what i saw...

But Commanders quickly came to the rescue and next thing you know,
Kangaroo's on the First-aid team!!
top that, mate..

True to China-ism, we bagged the inter-city challenge award.
(China, being a lil 'off' in fashion terms, but always bringing the golds in the Olympics)
I got to manager and strategize the team members for China
Though we didnt win any matches, China had a steady 2nd place for ultimate frisbee, laser tag and some game about cardboard boats and lakes which won us the title.
All you 'Chinese' who see this, especially those who participated, CONGRATS!! each one of you did excellent and

Well its a national camp for every all Royal Rangers in Malaysia
4 days long (+1 for me because i went to help prepare the site)
with loads and loads of endless games and fun and fellowship
and to those manning the stalls of endless fun and games? endless work...
but no complains. nope none..

but oh, so blessedly amazing to see kids opening up
to new friends, to God, to Commanders (like me.. lol)

Also got to meet the whole bunch of them from the Glad Tidingses and Graces
and not to forget new ones line stephanie, joel, jessie, david, lydia, justin, amanda etc etc...

you dont know how much what you give can affect those whom you give what you give to

k thats all for now i guess
more pics next time la..

Cmdr Hansel.

Easter, Treyc's birthday, Kah Yun and CIMP Talent Night '09

2009-04-17T00:02:00.010+08:00

Well, its kinda been a while since pictures came in.. so yeah..

Easter

Easter was a good time to remember what really mattered,

why we do what we do,

Saturday night in Bukit Jalil Stadium

Sunday morning in City Harvest, Sunway

Puts things into focus again la basically...
when everything else is blurred

Treyc's Bday...

How to celebrate a birthday without the birthday person?
who cares? less men, more share...

here's to you, sista..

kidding laa..
We had sandwiches during your birthday, and so thought of making you 1..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

Kah Yun

What to do when your friends emitted to the hospital with hemorrhagic dengue?
ANS: Take pictures... make his moment last... hahahaa..

Drip...

He's alright laa...

I think he's out now.. But his bro's sent in now... no prizes for guessing why..

CIMP Talent Night '09

Talent Night this year was great, in fact i just got back from it..
(no I'm not excited and typing enthusiastically, it wasn't THAT great... haaha)

That's why no pics too... cant steal from any blogs...
But, unlike laaast yeaaar, the money was definitely worth it..
The opera singer was goood
The girl who played disturbia was good too...

Other than that were rapping, singing, trumpeting... all alriiight la... i wouldn't say bad..
Kai Lai and the breakdancers put up a good show too.. not like last years slutty show...

Oh, and the Commtech videos in between the performances was purely hilarious..

And and and... they ended the students performances with a band (named 'The Hello Kitties', After Ms. Janie's obsessive affections for Hello Kitty...) doing 'Knights of Cydonia' and 'Plug in Baby', both Muse tracks...

NO WAAY.... waay too impossible...

And it was.. sadly, they had a band... that played with a -1 track... waat!? who you tryin to kid laa? They probly even stole the extra riff Muse did after Plug in Baby in the Wembley concert and acted like they were playing it..

But.. they're Muse fans.. and so, thou art forgiven...

Oh, and btw...

...nice..

Roadsides

2009-04-08T00:00:00.008+08:00

So, there i was....
6 hours of college
3 hours of bus-ing around and
2+ km of foot work behind me

Half a kilometer ahead

It was drizzling, the kind with sad heavy drops...
maybe i should have waited for a bus in the first place, but i just didn't like standing helplessly under the rain

I stopped striding at a junction
Its a funny feeling having cars were flying pass on my right and motionless trees on my left
Makes you feel like being trapped in time, epiphanic...

I looked across the 4 lanes to the Petronas as the rain gets heavier
Now if i ran, I'd get soaked.. if i stayed.. not much difference there..

Took a step back against a palm tree and watched the moody sky moaning
Watched the rain crawling closer to my feet
The thunder calls echoing the lightning flashes in the clouds...
Remember how teacher taught you not to stand under trees when its raining?

Only one thing was stopping me from dashing to shelter...
And that was weariness, despite all self-denial and masculine 'ego' i have in my strength
Well, that... and maybe the speeding cars too...

But then hope appeared, salvation from the drench
in ridiculous impossible coincidence

A bus.

Which side of the road would you have stood at?

"I would like to thank God for..."

2009-03-29T23:48:00.009+08:00

Ive got a testimony...

When I started this week, i was sick and broke...

but i got healed.. Thank God...

but before i got healed, i banged up my car against a Nissan Terrano..

So thank God for protection...

And that i didn't have to pay petrol for the rest of the week...

And i don't have to pay for the other car's damages, there were none...

Come to think about it, I didn't have to pay for mine either...

Thank God mom let me off the hook this time...

And after sending my ride for repairs, my dad asked if i needed money...

He said God told him i needed it...

I don't know if he was joking, but he didn't seem like it at the time...

So i thank God, not so much for the money...

But for what my dad said, its really something coming from him...

Then my mom gave me money too...

Thank God even more...

Btw, I'm only bragging God's goodness to me

And then i got my mid-term results...

Thank God for great results, very satisfied...

I learnt not to rely so much on my abilities...

Most of the youth went tracting on Saturday...

And we all asked God to stop the rain for a while...

And He did, for a while... Thank God...

here i was back then

2009-03-20T01:09:00.005+08:00

i was suppose to be back from Endau Rompin today

i don't know why i chose not to go

no, i do

assignments

now I'm sick and

I'd like to think of it as a "man cold"

maybe its because i didn't go serve

in the hike and God's punishing me

no, He wouldn't do that, would He

but I'm really feeling it now

headaches, stomach aches,

flu, fever, and a killer sore throat

it may be the weather

rain and sun and rain and rain and sun

or maybe its the cup noodles i had after IMU life group

mixed with instant mash potatoes

i think its that

i thank God for my presentation marks though, its really good

and i got two of my mid term results, before the mid of my term

I'm happy with them

but Ive got stacks of assignments to get done

and redone

I'm getting lazy again, barely finishing what I'm suppose to

you know what i do when I'm in this kinda situation

just drop everything and do something i want

just me, what i want

of course i have to keep in mind the time so i can pick your work up again after having fun

but that's what I'm doing now

I'm sick and tired and stressed out and frustrated at myself

but it happens, and it'll pass and everything will be alright again

just

take that time off

oh, what do you think of the new layout?

Right now,

2009-03-09T21:03:00.010+08:00

Right now,

Im deciding on wether to go back to Endau Rompin...

theres a Father-and-Son backpacking trip by the Rangers...

Upeh Guling and Buaya Sangkut falls on top..

Man...

Hahha.. WHATS TO DECIDE?

Oh after the malacca trip i headed a costume party by Sel7 Rangers

yes, i went for a costume party thing...

with a fedora from Malacca, even... hahaa...

And after asking security guard after security guard where that "house that belongs to the church" was,

i got there with 2 other dudes who were in the same fix... fancy that..

Anyways, heres a lil something from that night:

Ms. wat-time-izit?

The Count

Scrubs/House/Greys Anatomy/Ampang Medical (huh..?) meets Indiana jones/Australia (nah...)/Brokeback/Deadwood

No guesses here...

Heath Ledger and Jake Gyllenhaal
LOL...

Darren Scissorhands

but none of us KL1-ers came, so quite sesat la actually...
i think ill keep the details on why it was so unpublished
But a part from that it was a blast! great job Renee and whoever else who deserves credit for it..

Paddington Bear's the best, my opinion...

thats the one second from the right

Right now,
ive got this pain in my chest, right at the centre

NO, i mean literally
its been hurting for a while... and hasnt gong away
Oh, it makes a clicking sound when i stretch too
but it hurts everytime i take a deep breath or when my heart beats fast...
anyone has a clue what it might be?
Maybe its the coffee...

I went for watch watchmen with Mun Yee last friday...
Despite her not being 18 yet...
Im not a good influence, am I?

Review?

Great!:
I think is has a great plot... wun wana spoil it for ya...
Cool Characters... RORSCHACH rocks!!
Great Audio? loved the songs...
Crazy effect... naturally

Hate!:
Alot of information condensed into th 2hour 45 minute film... HEADACHE!!
Draggy... (dare i say boring?)
A little too... hm.. Graphic?

But definitely worh the money... SATISFIED.
(it may seem like it competing hard with Dark Knight at times too.. but thats for you to decide)

Right now,
Im on holiday, and i want a good one...
its one week earlier than the rest...
no interuptions no disturbances

Where it all began...

2009-03-02T22:13:00.013+08:00

Malacca..
Malaysian Studies trip..

It was alriggght laa.. i mean..
despite the ANNOYING TOUR GUIDE
despite the SCORCHING HEAT
despite the CROWDED SPOTS and NOISY MOMENTS

there were a great many things to see... and learn from...
Altough my mom was Malaccan, i never been there much..
So it was kinda awesome learning what might be from my geanology..

i saw these 3 photographers sticking their lenses thru a hole in a door..

so i did the same and this is what i got..

Its either a "Wow" or "Waat..." effect..

its a wow enough for me..

Shaun..

Facinated by the holes..

Nyonya furniture..

Time...

ever constant, ever changing...

Religion and Tradition

1st Protestant Church in Malaysia behind a decorated trishaw

lovely lighting..

but very unbalanced :(

A fountain "in memory of a Great Queen"..

How would YOU want to be remembered?

life, death, and decay...

a couple of kerises

i dont know who that is coz i didnt go see who.. ahha..

Coins.. um, yeah..

two i-duno-whos posing under THE supposed Amalaka tree.. paramesrawara's tree..

dun ask me how they knew.. tour guide oso duno..

and i was jk, its leela and suetteng.. haha..

Japanese tourists being led by an Indian guide..

who speaks crazy amazing Japanese..

St Paul's Church

Jane Charlotte.. sounds hot..

Beach in the Portuguese settlement..

The Formosa gates..

Suet Teng and Kai Lai

In shades of White... literally..

Kai lai.. nuf said..

The Cheng Hong Teng temple..

2009-02-26T21:21:00.009+08:00

"but you passed up a day late, that's 50% off your marks."
"good job, very well done."
"tell me honestly, don't lie to me, Su Han. Did you plagiarize?"
"well, you're almost there... but not there."
"i enjoyed your presentation much."
"shit happens, Su Han, i cant help you there."

Well, this is worth blogging..
i was explaining (for the 1,000,000Th time) how i got the name "Hansel"
when i decided to check the Etymology (study of the origin of words) of the name and
this is what i got:

"HANSEL was not found in this database." (behindthenames.com)
ouch... having a non-existent name?

but interest driven me searched till i found this off thinkbabynames.com:

The boy's name Hansel \ha(n)-sel\ is a variant of Hans (Scandinavian, German, Danish) and John (Hebrew), and the meaning of Hansel is "the Lord is gracious".
The baby name Hansel sounds like Hanzel and Hansl. Other similar baby names are Hanyel, Haniel, Hansen and Mansel. (Mansel..!?)
Hansel is a very rare male first name and a very popular surname (source: 1990 U.S. Census).

The Lord is gracious...

oh, it actually ain't all that special...
i share the meaning with John, Jane, Evan, Shavonne, Janet, Yann etc...

But what does this prove? Lol..
God has been VERY Gracious...

btw, anyone heard of Ralph Mactell's "Streets of London"?

The Hunt For Gollum

2009-02-18T23:37:00.006+08:00

hey,
found this trailer..

If your LOTR-clueless, its just before the FOTR began but after The Hobbit.
Its how Aragorn,

"the Heir of Isildur; the “greatest huntsman and traveller in Middle Earth” (1,2... 3! *roll eyes..) as he sets out to find the creature Gollum. The creature must be found to discover the truth about the Ring, and to protect the future Ringbearer." (bookcentral.com)

Id say its a little wierd that the characters look so much alike, but unlike the big screen ones..
And 1:31 is the cliche-est..
But a good attempt for fans..

Aragorn looks abit Judas Iscariot-ish to me, or like beggars or thiefs..
which tends to come across as unprofessional (for rangers..)

But hey, its just a home movie.. (and its LOTR!)

Releasing 3rd May.

point-and-shoot / When I hold the release

2009-02-14T11:21:00.011+08:00

Courtesy of...

2009-01-31T21:32:00.004+08:00

i always visit this page, i really do..
and i just keep wondering..
"will this blog ever be updated?" its then that it hits..
I'm suppose to update it..

isn't it much like life?
where its you re responsibilities that you run away from?
when you have time, you dont spend it doing what you have to?
what you should?
from a Christian perspective, i mean...
look, no criticism, just conviction..
God gave us a sword to fight with, and all other means necessary..
skills, money, talents, all other means...
then what are we waiting for? all hell to break loose?
and we keep praying
revival, Lord, revival..
and we expect someone else to do it..

hey,
have you ever looked at someone wearing contact lens before?
i don't know why, but its so interesting...
and i don't mean the awkwardness of an Asian with blue eyes,
but yeah, that IS awkward.. who're you trying to kid?
i cant seem to take my eyes off the eyes of anyone with contacts, its like there's this depth inside that's infinite, and I'm trying to find its end..
NO, its not a turn on, haha.. and its not an obsession and i wont pull someones face to mine just for the sake of eye contact..
its just really nice to look at..

i got this new camera..
no its not a DSLR, wish it was..
its just a point and shoot.. but its still fun..
i had to buy it.. for my com tech assignments..
it didn't cost anywhere near a dslr.. but its still a bomb to me.. yeah, despite cny..
sacrifice..

you know, brown has a thing for me..
no kidding.. i don't know why either.. every time i get something.. its brown..
I'm not that choosy with colours..
fact is, i don't care much about them.. well, unless its something really weird like pink, or purple..
i go more for the quality of what i buy.. and the price, of course..
and its somehow always brown..
my wallet, hand phone..
and now, my camera.. haha..
yeah..

speaking of my com tech assignments,
i think these white lecturers really have a thing against us Asians..
how can you have so much assignments on CNY?
as a matter of fact.. how can you have ANY assignments on cny?
but what they give is what we do..

"yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, but today is a gift. That's why its called the 'present'."

well, in short...
i have no idea what to publish on my blog..
so i got everything I'm thinking of..
but hey, its a post right?

i think ive got a tag by someone im suppose to do..
but i forgot about it..
maybe ill find it..
or just continue forgetting about it..

now I'm thinking of what you're thinking..

A Lil Reminder That...

2008-12-28T18:18:00.010+08:00

.. God loves even the least of these..

No, i dont intend to insult..
Rangers had a council fire and sam and i planned it.. it went well..
we dressed up and decorated.. with welcome gifts and torches and props and all..

and i told my story.. of red sloppity lips and long green fingers.. yeah..

im reminded that youre not suppose to smile just because youre serving.. its the serving that makes you smile..

no pics

.. I didnt get here by my own strength..

..neither am i gona run solely on it.

Council of Achievement..
got my GMA, finally......

yes, im trying my bestest best not to brag here..
But i sincerely thank God for this.. for sending the people he sent, for saying the words he did, when i needed it..

im nothing but for the work of God in my life.. work(-still)-in-progress..

.. Gods still always here, you just need to look close enough..

you need to need him bad enough..

This Is Now

youth camp this year was in a nutshell.. refreshing..
not up to par as compared to previous years, bluntly.. but certainly much needed..
i dont mean to complaint.. committee did brilliantly.. and exhaustively too..

did you see a new generation rising? it is hope rekindled..

oh and i got to be first aid..
wohoo..

personally.. theres only one thing i needed most at this time..
and thats direction.. and i found it, God, vaguely.. but its there..

its just college, i guess.. it rips you apart..
Like two sides of a cut, pulled apart instead of pressured to stop the blood..

.. God works in funny ways..

Daniel Angs farewell.
seein all those alpha kids (i know i shouldnt be calling you that, young adults..) watching the movie together, being noisy and messy and wacky and all that..

which makes you think of how their gona be as leaders..
which makes you think of how that noisiness and wackyness.. pause, i think the right word is MTB-ism.. can be used to 'impact our generation'
which spins that doubt all the way around into excitement to what God's promises hold..

the noisy bald guy is finally gone..
lol.. just kidding..

.. the Greeks miss out one more kind of love..

for mountains..
well, theres phileo, storge, eros and agape.. for parents, friends, lovers, and love unconditional respectively.. but none for things or arts..

but i guess its under agape.. unconditional of WHAT you love.. lol.. dont listen to me..

Spent Christmas in Cameron Highlands.. and climbed Gunung Brinchang with my cousins.. and caroling.. and we ate and ate and ate.. haha.. i need to lose weight now.. new years resolution.. definitely..

met new people too.. like um.. Kum Loong, and Reitter and Steffi, and Chris Cooper, and Brian and Ryan, i reckon i got half the names wrong..

and bumped into old faces.. haha.. stereostatic wayne, and joyce and jacqueline whom i nvr knew were cousins.. fancy that..

.. i have a blog, and it needs updating..

and will be updated.. soon..

oh yeah.. got my results back...

and i wana thank God for it.. (which is kinda ironic coz its all the way down here..)

i passed all my subjects.. haha.. Whoo..

well.. its 2a's and a.. yeah, pass..

(no prize for guessin which subject..)

amen!!

i look to the hills, where does my help come from?..

2008-11-05T17:22:00.003+08:00

God, grant me the grace to except the things i cant change
and the balls to change what i can..

i hate the rain..
just hate it..
i got drenched getting in the bus..
and just when i thought i was dry and safe,
i got wet getting out..
cant the bus driver stop at the shelter?

woke up late somemore..

but most of my work is done, thank you God..
exams in 2 weeks.. and NO study break..

..my help comes from the Lord, creator of heaven and earth.."

of a birthday..

2008-11-03T16:35:00.013+08:00

SUNDAY:

Me and Kah Leong, (or preferably known as "Phillip"):

Hey, Jims birthday on tuesday.. right? want to do something?
Like what?

We buy him lots and lots of coke..

Or we do belanja dinner at chillies la..

or both?

LOL.. cutting the long story short..
my idea didn't materialize..

neither did his.. well, it did partially..
It ended VERY Royal Rangers like..

So, where to eat la?
(Ngeow) Somewhere with free-flow of coke..?

Chillies?

Mc-D la..

Know what we did?

we all ordered medium and gave him a large..

Yes, that IS a candle..

And just because it was his birthday we all ordered what he did..

Sam, what cake is Tim buying?

duno..

wait, it better not be Chocolate Indulgence or Chocolate Banana.. sick of it already la..

Chocolate Banana

Jim & Jamie..

Cake cutting..

Jamie & Jim listening to Tims story bout..

haha.. something laa..

The Lams..

Tim & SamSoong

Happy Birthday, Cmdr..

from your 'Ranger boys'..

another tag..

2008-10-22T08:58:00.005+08:00

1. Would you marry for money?

nope, only girls do..

2. Have you had braces?

nope, im suppose to.. but im waiting for technology to make it obsolete

3. Could you live without a computer?

Who can?

4. If you could live in a different decade which would it be?

Im happy where i am..

5. Do you drink enough water?

i drink like.. 3 cups a day.. lunch, dinner and when i realise im really dehydrated..

6. Do you wear shoes in the house or take em off?

take off..

7. What are your favorite fruits?

love'em all..

8. What is your favorite place to visit?

i want to go to the foot of Mt. Kinabalu.. theres the wind and the view and the stars at night..

9. Are you photogenic?

haha.. cameras hate me..

10. Do you dream in color or black and white?

i only notice the colour when it seems to matter..

11. Why do you take surveys?

because i want to make a stand and change the world

lol..

12. Do you drink alcohol?

i have drank, but i dont 'drink'

13. What is the most beautiful language?

body language.. ;)

14. Do you like being kissed when you are asleep?

dont disturb me when i sleep...

15. WHAT do you like MOST: Sunrise or sunset?

both, rather equally..

16. Do you want to live until you're 100 yrs old?

feeling young and healthy? yeah..

otherwise? id rather die..

17. Is a flat stomach important to you?

when i get one ill find out..

18. What body part of the opposite sex is sexiest?

the heart.

haha.. okay.. very cheesy.. i know..

19. When watching scary movies are the lights on or off?

OFF

20. Do you believe in magic?

define 'magic'..

21. Do you believe in ghosts?

define 'ghost'..

22. Do you like to watch cartoons?

its alright.. you can never really be too old for them, can you?

or is it just me?

23. At what age did you find out that Santa Claus wasn't real?

never thought he was.. always knew he was just another fairy tale.. like me..

wait..

24. Do you write poems?

yeah, if you read Roald Dahl and Dr.Seuss, you would too..

25. Do you snore?

haha.. i snore i roll over i have 1-way conversations i have 2-way conversations i walk around i change clothes i take a piss (in the toilet, mind you) i get milk (from the fridge)

the whole package, depending on how tired i am..

26. You sleep more on your back, front,or sides?

on my back..

27. Would you rather have a poodle or a rottweiler?

Rottweiler..

28. Are you basically a happy person?

im happy

29. Are you tired?

yeah..

30. Did you drink anything with caffeine?

dyou know who youre tagging?

31. How do you take your coffee?

by the gallons..

32. How many landline/cellphones do you have in your house?

33. Do you get along with your parents?

most of the time..

34. Do u smoke?

nope

35. Do you have a kitty?

nope, mom says cat shit stinks more than dog shit..

i had a dog..

Duke..

36. Have you ever had a birthday party?

nope...

37. What do you do when you're sad?

ask God, "why laaa?"

38. What do you need most now?

(sigh)

39. What song are you listening to now?

honestly? the printer beside me making noise..

40.what are you craving right now?

thai fried rice from Orange

good stuff

----------------------

i havent been lazy..

infact, i think i have 3 draft posts..

i just dont know what to blog i guess..

lol..

Everyone says CIMP is the coolest pre- course..

well, everyone from other courses, at least..

maybe its because they think the stress is spread out throughout the sem..

actually, it doesnt really feel that way..

it feels like the pressure is more constant

always switched on..

than other courses..

like when youre running..

the moment you stop, its hard to pick up again..

everyone knows that..

im going to go now..

im in the library

which is being renovated..

so its noisy..

bye..

2008-10-16T16:24:00.003+08:00

IMPRESSED
Got a message from my cousin, Tania..
Brian, her brother, created the
WongFamilyTreeHouse website..
lol.. were goin online man..

its good, because having 7uncles, 7Aunties and..
what, 19 cousins? isnt easy to follow up with..

which makes me wonder what this is going to turn into..

UNSATISFIED
CIMP Talent Night was just plain boring..
most of them were just unentertaining.. especially the one's we had most expectations in..
like the SIS Idol winners and the Stereostatics Project band..
but..

Justin did great with his act.. really cool hip hop routine ending with a romantic suprise dance with his girl..

and Jowee was touching with her heart felt, self-composed song on the piano..

but my vote goes to the "Evolution of Dance" guy.. he got the moves AND the balls.. lol..

RELIEVED
MDM presentation is finally over..
and it didnt go as bad as i thought it would..

see, we were suppose to do it on tuesday..
but we didnt pass up a copy of our slides to the teacher the day before..
so when we were in front and dressed up and ready to deliver....
he slots us in for thursday..

it went good though.. good enough..
managed to pull my act together...

FRUSTRATED
i cant find my wire..
that means no photos..

gtg.. cant miss the bus, again..

i need to post something or ill become too lazy and give up which i dont want to so yeah here we go..

2008-10-14T16:03:00.005+08:00

really got nothing to much to say..
i mean..

there WAS NTC and how fun and educational and torturous it was..
and there was celebrating Raya with Sam in his car after NTC with Lemang and Rendang..
there was the family gathering in Aunty Peng's house with fireworks and all.. and how we all watched Mamma Mia together.. after having that hi-tea in Shangri-la..
there was celebrating my bday early because my sister was around in chilies..
there was the pmr visitation in donald's house which was pretty cool..
there was that and more.. with pics too..

well, as for the pics.. next time la..
(i cant wire it up now.. cant find the wire..)
and im busy busy busy..

there.. one post..

Here we go... again..

2008-09-19T08:52:00.004+08:00

Tag by Soon..

1. What is the relationship of you and her?

im suppose to buy her kittens when she grows old..

2. Your 5 impressions towards her.

friendly um.. sarcastic.. um.. (what else did you tell me to say.. oh, yeah..) very tall, and getting taller

3. The most memorable things she had done for you.

tell me my hair looks like carpet grass?

4. The most memorable things she have said to you?

"your hair looks like carpet grass.."

5. If she become your lover, you will...

drop dead.. more height proportionate..

6. If she become your enemy, you will...

not have to buy kittens anymore..

7. If she become your lover, she has to improve on...

lets not go down that list.. im picky..

O8. If she become your enemy, the reason is...

she has no other friends..

9. The most desirable thing to do to her is?

who comes up with these things anyways?

10. The overall impression of her is...

just Soon..

11. How do you think the people around you will feel about you?

me? never really tought about it.. really, i dont care..

12. The character of you for yourself is?

13. On contrary, the character you hate of yourself is?

procrastination

14. The most ideal person that you wanna be is?

Jesus

15. For the people who care about and likes you, say something about them.

sure or not...? haha..

Tagging.. anyone la..

(lazy to do this part la.. sry soon.. lol..)

::instructions::

Never see the questions before you arrange the names - all mentioned below are TAGGED!

1. leeen
2. celia

3. germaine

4. andrew

5. kai xun

1. How did you meet 1?

grew up together

2. On a scale of 1 - 10, how would you rate your friendship with 1?

um... 8?

3. How long have you known 4?
grew up together

4. How do you know number 3?

same school.. twice..

5. Where's 5?

in class?

6. A fact about number 1?

she's 'its complicated' now..

7. Who is 4 going out with?

his motha.. haha.. nope, he's single and available..

8. What does 1 do for a living?

studies, eat, sleeps, and shits out what she eats

9. Would you live with number 3?

if that was the only place left in the world..... no

10. What do you like about number 2?

shes friendly.. and open.. thats nice..

11. Do you miss number 5?

well.. yeah, in a (not gay) way..

12. Would you make out with number 4?

ha.. ha.. and make his deepest darkest dreams come true? right..

13. What's your opinion on number 2?

she really fun to be around with?

14. What's your favourite memory with number 5?

erm.. oh, decorating the class for merdeka singing the "double-sided tape" song.. haha..

15. What will you do if number 1 and 2 were going out?

impossible..

16. Ever had a long conversation with 5?

yeah.. good ones too..

17. Have you ever slept at 2's house?

nope

18. Do you hang out with 3 a lot?

nope

19. Who have you known the longest?

no. 1

20. What will happen if number 1 and 5 have a relationship?

that.. wouldnt be so bad, actually..

21. How often do you talk to 1?

At least once a week.

22. What about 2??

almost everyday?

23. Have you ever thought 3 more than a friend?

very funny..

24. Would you go on a date with number 5?

hell no..

25. Do you dream about number 2?

i... dont think i ever have?

26. What did no.4 did to you that you can never forget?

kiss michael.. you know you did, no.4..

27. What have you done for/to 1 that the person never forgets?

watch her cry and say.. "eh, stop it lah.."

28. What's 3's hobby?

writing stories? i know she used to.. ;P

DONE.

Im gona be stopping for a while okay..

which isnt great timing because RR sel7's having an anniversary camp tomorrow and alot of other stuff besides..

but as for my last post till the next.. ;P

today went pretty bad.. most of it..

- Jess cried after her presentation.. (not because of me..)

- im not happy with my results..

- and 4 days shy from my presentation, my (only) teammate drops the subject..

But, but.. i got to catch up with May Yi again.. BiG :)

miss high school la..

and.. yeah.. something else too..

2008-09-18T08:57:00.003+08:00

Well, after Tuesday's meeting, i went to see the student vs. teacher basketball match..
only to be distracted by Nadia.. hahaa..
in the end we were passing Frisbees to each other instead of watching the match..

after awhile, she said..

hey, Ive got to go now..

huh? what time is it?

6 already..

oh man..

bus leaves at 5.30.. yup..

Bumped into Dorothy during dinner.. haha.. wearing her DJ-ian t-shirt.. semangat djian!
haha.. don't get me wrong, that was sarcasm..
oh.. oh.. my cousins a Dynamite now.. haha.. congrats you.. work hard..

Wednesday, despite having to go back to college, was quite fun.. haha..
no, serious..

bought a few Cds at salvation.. retail therapy, stress relief..

i met up with a Korean, Indonesian and a Vietnamese for an English presentation..
we discussed about the theme of our story which somehow led to bleeding noses and assholes..

oh, and at pyramid, met Zulfan and Rini.. haha.. coincidence..
ahh... wanted to go extreme park with them..
but i promised to take mom go buy buka puasa food.. :P

Thursday: Report card day... Oohhh MAN... hope i do better la.. God, its Your call..
well, movie of the week is 'Alien', so i guess there IS something to look forward to..

I'm going to do a 4-part blog devotion on 'Perspective'
(just to remind myself the next time i do a post)

when a picture say a thousand words and im too lazy to type

2008-09-16T16:05:00.008+08:00

SATURDAY:

Played pool (45 minutes, 2 games.. nuf said..) and went to the arcade with Andrew..

SUNDAY:

Didnt get to teach Physical Fitness like was suppose to..

so i had an arm wrestling match for them..

lol.. even the girls took part..

MONDAY:

Rushed through today like mad..

had my driving test, english presentation, AND accounts test all in the same day..

to top it all off it rained on the way home..

good thing thats through, atleast..

TODAY:

im suppose to go for a meeting now so bye..

here we go..

2008-09-15T17:01:00.004+08:00

rules:

1. the rules of the game get posted at the beginning
2. each player answer the question bout themselves
3. at the end of the post the player then tags 5 ppl and post their names then goes to their blogs and leaves a comment, letting them know they got tagged and ask them to play

Starting time: 5:07 (monday)

Name: Hansel, Su Han, Wong, Han, Hans or Woi!!
Sisters: One
Brothers: One
Shoe Size: 11-12 around there
Height: 176?
Where do u live : Near Curve, Tropicana, Segi College, and KotaDamansara (because you probably dont kow where Tropicana Indah is..)
Favourite drinks: COFFEE
Favourite breakfast: anything BiG... coz im probably hungry

Have u ever been on the plane: a few times.. yeah..
swam in the ocean: Yeah..
fallen asleep at skool: Hahaa... always did, still do..
broken some one's heart: (sigh) yeah..
fell off ur chair: Lol.. i think so..
saved email: Yup, important ones..

what is in ur room like: People say its neat, but probably because i dont have much in it..
what right beside u: My bag..
what is the last thing you ate: Chee Cheong Fun in curry.. :P

ever had...
chicken pox: yeah, my sis had it 1st, then for convenience sake my mom put me near her.. thanks mom..
sore throat: you think?
stitches: yeah.. at my (i for got which..) eyebrow.. nearly hit my eye..
broken nose: yeah..

do u...
believe in love at first sight: Nope..
like picnics: Kinda forgot what those were like..

who was/were the last person you danced wit: haha.. someone la..
last made u smile: as of now? Bona.. acc classmate?
talk to someone u like: today? nope..

kissed anyone: as in today? nope.. or dyou mean 'ever'?
get sick: headache.. now..
talk to an ex: yeah.. caught up with each other quite abit, actually.. haha..
miss someone: oh yeah..
eat: i dont get this..
is there a person who is on ur mind now: hm.. yeah..

do u have any siblings: i thought we've been through this..
do u want children: yeah.. 3-5..
do u smile often: no.. not enough i think..
do u like ur hand writing: it was worse before.. and still can be better..

are ur toe nail painted: hm... pass.. ;)
whose bed other than urs you rather sleep in: i like my own, thanks..
what colour shirt are u wearing now: bleu..
what were u doin at 7.oopm yesterday: driving.. :)
when did u last cry: a month back maybe?

are u a friendly person: yeah.. to my friends, to those i have to be friendly with, and those who have the balls to be friendly with me.. yeah..

where is the person u feeling for right now: in my mind..

did u hold hands with the person who means anything to u today: no.. i held hands with an old lady i helped cross the road..
do u sleep with the tv on: no, but i sleep with the lights on all the time..
what are u doin right now: wondering when this will end

have u crawled through a window: yeah, jumped off the stadium before too..
can u handle the truth: i believe i can..

are u too forgiving: to kids, yeah..
are u closer to ur mum or father: mom..
who was the last person u cried infornt of: no one..

how many ppl can u say u have really loved: hard one.. gota think THAT through.. ill narrow it down to.. at most, ten..

have u ever cried because of something someone said to u: yeah.. i think so..

are u loud or quiet most of the time: both..
are u confident: depending on mood.. :)

5 THINGS I WAS DOIN IN 10 YEARS AGO

1. going through primary school?
2. wishing i was older
3. making lots of friends
4. playing police and thief
5. enjoying life and not realizing it la i guess

5 THINGS ON MY TO-DO LIST

1. make my billions
2. find my mansion
3. buy my ferrari
4. wake up from my dream; and
5. finish my assignments..

5 THINGS I WOULD DO IF I WERE A BILLIONAIRE

1. tithe
2. buy a house and car and wife.. ;P
3. bank in enough to live and support my family forever..
4. give to charity, ofcourse..
5. and then, spend the rest..

5 OF MY BAD HABITS

1. procrastination
2. pride
3. anger (especially for loud noises)
4. worry
5. i dont know, its the kind of question you can have a million answers and no answer at all at the same time

5 places i lived in:

1. Penang
2. KL
3. PJ
4. my dreams..
5. the forest?

5 JOBS I'VE HAD

Salesclerk
Data manager (well, office boy.. really..)
Student
Son (i get paid, so it counts..)

ending time: 9:16 (tuesday)

i tag: andrew, gillian, chel, lee en and.. yeah i dun want to let anyone else suffer..

Alhamdulillah, man..

2008-09-11T10:30:00.006+08:00

Got back my MDM (maths) test results yesterday..
haha.. BiG BIG :)

Thank God.. seriously, i worked for it but i don't think i deserve it (and everyone in class will agree) but I'm happy.. like ecstatic..

first i got 38/40.. with a 'well done' beside it too.. ;)
then Mr.G said because we improved so well, he'll think of adding 5% to our marks..
5% of 38 is... 1.9.. so, do the math..

Guess I'm out of Mr.G's "stupid students" list now.. haha..

haih.. now Ive got maths and acct quiz on Fri..
got to pray harder.. lol..

Oh, in my bus (which i know is kinda random) there's a stalker who stalks my friend, 4 Koreans that never fails to sleep in the bus, a girl that doesn't know how to stop talking, a guy who smells like a sweat drenched towel that hasn't been washed for 5 days, and a Korean and Indian girl from an international school who for some reason sound American in Malaysia (and aren't afraid to show it, sadly)..

Now, im gona learn how to play Classical Gas so Gabe'll bow down to me..

Well, its been like a week since..

2008-09-09T09:36:00.004+08:00

CARNIVAL:

..was alright, had a lot of fun and all..

everyone pulled the show together, despite the rain and fasting month and yeah.. other things..

RR ran our 'Bubble Burst' (which is a game, not a drink.. haha..) and 'Finger Football' (yes, also a game.. lol..) stall.. which, despite 'competition' ;P , put up a good fight and got quite good sales..

but hey.. reality check, aint it all for charity?

oh, and i ate Fiji food and drank a Cambodian smoothie..

so, yeah..

wet and busy..

haha.. and we saw a lot of this on the way home from the carnival..

Wohoo..that means free food.. BiG :)

lol.. bumped into Mealz on the way out when she was goin in.. long time no see.. looong time..

Oh, its because Damansara Indah is gona change its name to Tropicana Indah.. so its not lke were crashing the party or anything..

SUNDAY:

someone, to my horror, horned me when i was heading to church.. somewhere in PBD..

yeah..

then i followed behind the lady to church..

Devotional thought shared by Cmdr Eddie..

RR went alright.. gave them exceptionally more push ups because Cmdr Horr Wai wasnt here.. guilt coming in a lil now..

but im proud of them, they're growing physically, mentally, socially, and spiritually.. maturing and opening up more..

So, randomly..

Our new look, whoa..

I think i took this the day Chong Wei lost in the Olympics..

TODAY:

i need to get my assignments done..

2008-09-02T09:46:00.006+08:00

rain..

SUNDAY:

rushed to Cheras to carry flags at 9am service..

then rush to Ampang to carry flags for 10.30 service..

then carry flags again at DH for 5pm service..

haha.. fun la.. (not sarcastically..)

Cmdr eddie's dog.. regal
haha.. shes a model, btw.. yeah..

MONDAY:

Hey you free in the evening? dinner or something?
Wat, Today?

lol.. got to catch up with Andrew on yesterday..
i tot he was back in Kuantan..

watched wall-e, which was a bit gay.. but haha.. who cares?
not bad la.. story of a robot trying to find the balls to hold hands..

The usual battle between 'strength' and 'skill'.. unusually expensive battle, however..
the verdict? haha.. tie.. 1-1.. again..

next time.. next time..

thank God for food today..

TUESDAY: finally afforded the time (and money) for a double spicy chicken mcdeluxe
WEDNESDAY: cmdr eddie blanja
THURSDAY: cmdr jason blanja
FRIDAY: cmdr jim blanja
SATURDAY: tried out the star shaped pizza thing from pizza-hut with sam..
SUNDAY: had lunch at cmdr eddies place.. awesome stuff, his mom cooked..

i love RR..

2008-09-02T08:45:00.004+08:00

Instructions.

Remove one question from below and add in your own question,make it a total 20 questions.Then tag 8 people from your list.List them out at the end of the post.Notify them that they have been tagged.

1. At what age would you wish to marry?

marry at 25

get kids at 23..

2. Are you straight?

hell, yeah.

3. Do you smoke?

no, tempting.. but i wont..

4. What are the things that interest you now?

rock climbing, hiking, camping, backpacking, mountain climbing, jungle trekking.. and occasionally, girls..

5. List out two things that you'd like to do now.

eat
sleep

6. How old are you?

lapan belas

7. What is the latest thing you bought with your own money?

bus ticket home..

8. Do you believe in love at first sight?

nope.. lust at first sight, maybe..

9. Currently into?

eating

sleeping

10. Getting married is going to heaven or the grave?

getting married is going nowhere..

11. How many kids do you want?

16!!! football AND basketball team..

realistically.. hm.. 3 to 5.. (ambitious ;) )

12. Are you in love?

in, out, under, over? all of the above..

13. Where is the latest restaurant you had dinner?

Madam Lims at Tesco with andrew

14. Name the latest book you bought?

The Curious Incident of the Dog at the Night-time

15. Do you believe in an open book test?

i dont believe in tests.. ;)

16. Single or attached?

SINGLE

17. Name the first person that comes into your mind now.

the girl sitting on the opposite side.. guess its because i looked up to think of who im thinking of...

18. The most exciting place you want to go?

NZ.. i wanna c where they filmed LOTR !!

19. Which quality is more important in a love. Looks or personality?

Lets face it.. Looks always matter initially.. first impression and all..

but innitial impression fades in time and if personality doesnt replace it fast, it wont work out..

so in the long run, personality wins.. DUH..

20. Any regrets?

OH, lets not go down THAT line..

2008-08-30T01:47:00.001+08:00

lazy to post la..

OK.. quick post..

2008-08-28T08:45:00.004+08:00

Turns out I'm still as busy after my hell-iday..

haha.. well..

1. i failed my driving test.. haih..

i could taste it.. smell the license already...

why must it be like this!!?

haaih.. (i know grammatically it should be 'sigh'.. but hell with it la..)

i pass jalan.. in the rain

pass slope..

pass parking..

then i just HAD to be overconfident and fail the 3 point turn.. whats wrong with me?

haha..

well next time around will "only" be in 2 WEEKS..

so much for a good start to my week.. lol..

2. Sams clean-up project..

..was about organizing the store..

*points up..

yeah.. THAT store..

Kah Yun and Tim come along to help out..

we got things done pretty fast.. (finished around.... 9.30pm?)

but it was fun.. haha.. found a lot of funny stuff..

what suppose to be either a boat or a kayak..

donated long time a go by someone.. no one remembers who..

shorts.. (fits me.. hmm..)

and a broken tripod.. WOW...

We found a packet of Mister Potatoes that expired last year.. but hey, it still tasted good to me.. :)

(kidding la..)

BTW: keep your belongings to yourself.. nvr know who might be up to no good.. friends even..

3. GMA

Going to pass up my GMA today.. BiG :) haha.. hope it gets through..

more relieved its done than happy though..

maybe because i dragged it too long already.. not surprisingly

but i had to write an essay on the value of RR to me.. 500 words..

and it really struck me how much it has benefited me.. as a person in every sense..

how RR has made me stronger,

thought me new things.. (not only about the out doors, mind you..),

open me up socially,

and (most importantly..) deepen my relationship with God..

"..the Royal Rangers ministry has help me grow in the Lord more than any other ministry i am or have been involved in.."

Irrelevantly, i saw this at my neighboors house..

fire hydrant leaking.. haha..

there goes my good nights rest..

[over and out]

2008-08-24T21:03:00.010+08:00

haih.. didnt have the time to blog at all..
(well it WAS one busy week..)

Im not so stressed now..
So im gona talk bout my week.. because i finaly can.. :)

Firstly: my RR chirstian service project is done..

three days of doing what i dont like

painting
dragging my friends to do something inconvinient
painting

but thank God, (and Jims nagging..) im a huge step to completing my GMA..

Confession, I just wanted to get it done for my medal

But Sis Kat passed by on the Wed and mentioned how so very happy the CERC kids would be when they play there the next week..
and guilt and conviction and all that came in..
AND THEN I KNEW ALL THE EFFORT WAS WORTH IT..

heres the end result :

thanks sam n wesley (yea.. him too..) n brian n elisa n kah meng..

Secondly: Annual Camp..

Haha.. Now i officially HATE rain..

It rained every single day!

Sunshine..

Day one: i totally messed up the Council of Fire i was incharge of.. which was practically the night service for camp.. (came from 'Council Fire' meaning a pyramid of stacked wood that results in a huge flame lasting the whole 'council'..)

Screwed it up.. but i was too tired to care..

haha.. apparently so was everyone else..

oh yeah.. thats him..

Day two: i hiked with the Adventure Rangers 9km to another camp site..

(i think its a nice pic..)

respect to the girls man.. i didnt expect them to show anything.. well.. good..

one happy sight.. (after 9km, i mean..)

AND IT RAINED DURING DINNER..

THE DINNER THEY WERE SUPPOSE TO COOK THEMSELVES..

WITH A FIRE.. haha.

They tried cooking in the rain.. (hey.. some succeeded..)

OH oh.. yeah.. at night we had a fire going and a boys-only night took place.. haha.. you know what i mean.. lol.. we shared stories of our EXPERIENCES.. sighing and laughing at each.. and ofcourse passed around TIPS and (lol..) tricks.. HAHAhaaha..

Good fun/bonding time la..

good chance to get to know them better too..
Now i remember all their names.. (and their experiences.. HAHa..)

NOW:

im in a CC because my computers so sO SO slow... but im feelin better.. i guess..

OH.. drove today.. last 3hour lesson..
2mrw test... BiG :)

confident (hope not overly so though..)

ive got to finnish my

Christian service report

GMA merits before tuesday

assignments (oh man..)

random stuff i caught..

mimes.. not bad (only in this pic..)

good cd.. but not mine.. Coldplay rocks..

(do i hear an amen?)

my HELL-iday begins

2008-08-18T21:31:00.004+08:00

TODAY:

i woke up..
it was raining...
it wasnt suppose to rain..
how was i suppose to paint in the rain?
i hate rain..

i am thoroughly stressed out..
hair-pulling-wall-punching-yelling-breaking-crying-screaming-cursing kinda stressed out..

so many things running in my head..

but i was writing about all the things i had to do..
when i realized all i have been doing was talking about them..

i don't think its that bad.. really..
I've seen people take what i have way better..
I'm just bad at handling stress.. i tend to run away..
or stone.. and hope it goes away,
do nothing, watch things screw up and just take the blame..
irresponsibility.. God help me, You know I'm trying..

you know, its been really an up and down day..
i feel so pressured by so many tasks..
yet it help me appreciate many good things that happened..

we celebrated my bros birthday.. :) we had cake..
he was happy..
his auntie gave him a hundred bucks.. haha.. BiG :) for him..

Played dota.. not sure how THAT helps..

Kah Meng came to help paint.. which I'm very very grateful for..
and tomorrows gona be better.. because I've got 6 people helping me paint..
THAT can only be by GODS grace.. HuGe :) for me

PS: God, if You're reading this.. please let it not rain tomorrow.. :) Love you (either ways).

___________________

notice unity breaking? friends, family, and every other kind of relationship..
Divide and conquer is his strategy.. it has always been..
can we all just stop?

2008-08-14T23:23:00.003+08:00

Yesterday:

Oh, i was talking to Yvonne at the foyer bench yesterday after class..
when SUDDENLY..
she got up and started running.. oh yeah.. went ALL the way to the middle of the foyer and bent down..
then ran some more up the stairs opposite side of the foyer..
haha.. as she walked back, it hit me..

she was actually picking up money for an unfortunate guy.. OH...

i know shes not reading this.. but she quoted a bible verse (Matthew 7:12, the golden rule, mind you..) without realising it.. shes not a Christian, btw..

"So in everything, do to others what you would have them do to you"

And through a certain peculiar twist of events..
i found myself walking with an Ayeshah (wierd way of spelling it..) after the bus stopped at OU..
man, she talks a lot.. which was good, i didnt feel like the conversation starter then..
haha.. good time, good time.. lots of jokes.. lots of throwing insults.. fun la..
took lots of stress off that day..

Today:

Part 2 from yesterday..
i found money under a seat at the computer lab..
A LOT of money..
i informed the guy who was seating there.. and HE asked me if it was mine..
i said 'yes'.. AND NOW IM 50BUCKS RICHER!!!

well, no.. not actually..
i said remembered what Yvonne did.. and yes.. conviction..

and i found a pen drive.. 2gig...
THAT, i almost took..
coz i just lost mine and i thought God was being considerably generous.. ;)
but i found the owner.. Thank God.. i leave guiltless..

(im wondering if im being too brutally honest about myself..
it MAY disrupt my image as a youth leader.. hm..
but hey, what 'image' anyways?)

got my results back today.. sorta like a 'report card day' thing..
two b's n one.. haha.. not so good mark.. but, God help me, im trying..

And i have to do community service? waaat..
fun la..

2008-08-12T08:48:00.008+08:00

[But He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you.."]

This really caught me..
You Either Die A Hero, Or Live Long Enough To See Yourself Become The Villain...

Ive been thinking lots about the white knight/dark knight theme in the batman movie..to me, Harvey Dent's really the main character in Dark Knight..

Being the target of two extremes, living with different egos of his life.

innitially it was easy for him, knowing the system, having crowd support, admiring girlfriend, good looks..

so why not fight? there were more benefits on the good side anyways..

Compared to batman, he fought by choice.. not by circumstance..

but when the Nolan takes that away one by one..

and Dent starts to doubt all he trusts.. the only thing he falls back on is chance

in the struggle to maintain his image and hide his weaknesses, the tension of opposite pulls snapped him.. but batman endured?

why did righteous dent snap but batman could take it?

what did dent do wrong?

wasnt he on the right track? didnt he do everything right?

but you see we have one factor that cannot be taken away so easily..
["For when I am weak, then I am strong."]
*subject to editing*

_____________________________

Mr Tan from eng4c was asking around on monday for our essay topic and its thesis..

he rejected most because the topic was too wide..
me? i didnt plan anything.. but this is how it went..

T: What you write should be someting youre passionate about.. Who else has their topic?
H: *lift hand
T: whats yours?
H: im passionate about SEX
T: ...
( class burst out laughing )
T: haha.. thesis?
H: Um.. yeah.. how.. people.. How Teenagers.. are affected by pre-marital sex.. psychologically..
T: positively, or negetively? ;)
H: negatively la..
T: ... okay, do it..

Yes, man.. not only i get a good interesting topic, it was accepted..

Phew.. Thank God for quick thinking..

"Its okay to get yourself in trouble, just as long as you know how to get yourself out.."

_____________________________

Saying I love you

Is not the words I want to hear from you

It's not that I want you

Not to say, but if you only knew

How easy it would be to show me how you feel

More than words is all you had to do to make it real

Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me

Cos I'd already know

What would you do if my heart was torn in two

More than words to show you feel

That your love for me is real

What would you say if

I took those words away

Then you couldn't make things new

Just by saying I love you

Now I've tried to talk to you and make you understand

All you have to do is close your eyes

And just reach out your hands and touch me

Hold me close don't ever let me go

More than words is all I ever needed you to show

Then you wouldnt have to say that you love me

Cos Id already know

2008-08-09T01:06:00.003+08:00

Its 1 now..

Maths presentation was good.. mine was the first team up..
and it was mostly impromptu too..
but the group was good at making things look good..
so it was all good..

Accounts quiz.. haha.. see the results first la..

Driving lesson was on the freeway today.. haha..
lots of cement mixers, lorries, and container trucks..
fun..

Went out with my family later.. (im proud of it..)
because Treyc was back..
+ Wesley wanted to celebrate his bday (18th) while his sis was still around..
sigh.. that boy.. :)
So dad took leave and we watched a movie..

Its been awhile since we all spent time together, i realized..
hard la.. especially if a member is studying overseas..
great to have Treyc back..
absence makes a heart grow fonder..

So, I (finally) saw Dark Knight..
and it was great.. ill have to watch it again..
i dont mind.. who would?
And Heath Ledger definitely outdid Christian Bale..

so youth leaders, thats why i didnt come for prayer meet k.. spend time with family.. ;)

Haha.. i drove them there too.. BiG :)
(you should have heard my mom passenger-seat-driving me up the wall)

See you tomorrow, andrew.. (that means today, actually..)

these colours really dont work together.. do they..?

2008-08-08T00:10:00.007+08:00

SIGH

stress...

God help me, i need strength and will..

presentations, quizzes, projects, assignments, and now I'm sick..

LOL

i was having lunch at the cafeteria today..

when i went to order barbecued chicken rice

(which btw cost 7bucks.. no wonder they didn't have menus..)

and i saw my maths teacher... MrG, who ordered the same thing..

He asked if 'that' was it.. pointing at my chicken, which was being deep fried..

next thing I knew, he created a big fuss about

Why the barbecued chicken wasn't barbecued but deep fried..

G, barbecue's the flavor.. not the cooking method..

HAHA

Had lunch with Wayne and Aishah (i think that's how you spell it..)

their the friendliest people i have ever met.. serious..

laughing the whole way through..

BiG :)

Oh, my sis is back!

haha.. its been forever..

spent 2 hours looking for her at OU

glad shes home, even for a few days..

Getting better..

2008-08-06T20:54:00.005+08:00

I drove to college today..
but its not something to shout about..
because i was driving the [L] license kancil.. yeah..
i had driving lessons again..
learn parking, 3 point turn n slope this time..
not too bad..

"its always fun to drive, no matter how loud the instructor yells.."

LOL..
I found my big heavy bulky Accounts book..
and i still have my mom's 50.. (...which ofcourse i intend to give her back ;))
but yeah.. im really glad i didnt buy another before i found it.. really..
HuGE :)

"one word: relieved.. "

And i got a ride home..

thanks to Celia..
helped me cut off hours of waiting.. haha..
Nice car.. the colour purple suits you..
good driving too.. ;)

Thanks for everything.. :)

BiG :)

2008-08-05T22:13:00.004+08:00

Now im officially sick..

and its not the weather (well, i still blame it.. partially..) but my guess is the durians i had the other day..

-BUT-

i was right..

it was a better day..

sort of..

I got my MDM test results.. BiG :)

3/4 correct.. God, im really cant ask for more.. THANKS!

Proves what Sn pastor says.. do your part, and God does His..

Mom said she'll give RM50 for another accounts book.. haha.. BiG :)

still have to pay the balance.. but 50's a BIG help..

And i took a walk home again.. straighten things out with God..

(more like God straightening things out with me..)

that was refreshing..

HAHA..

An undeniable miracle happened today..

i slept through the WHOLE accounts class...

and teacher didnt complain at all.. AT ALL..

i was really tired.. and sick.. (thats my excuse.. atleast..)

Oh, met theses two girls who got on the wrong bus..

ROFLMAO... (sry, just had to try that once..)

they were heading to KL sentral..

my bus goes to PJ..

so they asked if there was a LRT station.. but KJ station already passed..

Ended up dropping off at OU with me..

I feel for them.. i took the wrong bus once too..

haha.. most people dont know that..

2008-08-04T21:49:00.005+08:00

Bad BAD day..
lots of stuff happened.. things gone missing, getting sick (must be the weather), friends problems (which i care a lot about), assignments.. sigh..
yeah..

no bloggin mood la.. even feel like closing down again..

well I'm looking at the (ridiculously optimistic) bright side of life though.. lol..

at least tomorrow cant be as bad..

COA..

2008-08-03T20:53:00.004+08:00

So, yeah.. RR KL#1 had our Council of Achievement today..
As usual.. lots of acts.. lots of laughs... lots of FOOD..

oh and the fellowship.. SO much talking sometimes i wish we talked a little less and ate a little more..
( its an 'inside' thing.. )

And pastor Steven was there.. to grace the event..
made me realize how long since i last saw him..

posers.. we're not bad people.. (unless if it comes to it..)

Um.. uh. yeah.. point proven, we're not bad people..

Hey, did you know, the term we're all so familiar with, 'Calvary Youth', actually consists of 4 parts?

Christ ambassabors

CCSM

Missionettes

YES, it does.. dont believe? go check.. GO.

its a term abused more often than not..

I was just thinking, what if.. all 4 groups got together and did something..

What their suppose to do in the first place, our common main purpose..

Because, look.. each of these group have such unique strenghts (and weaknesses, admit it..) thats are evidently different from each other.. what if we put aside differences for awhile and see how high we can reach as a whole ministry..

you want to 'reach, teach and keep'? you want to 'impact our generation'?

but as i say this, i have to admit, it makes me feel guilty.. because i am a Royal Ranger and a Christ Ambassador.. and what am i doing about it? sigh..

please, im not trying to blame anyone, (ive had enough of people misinterpreting my posts..)or trying to say that everything been done wrong.. no..

its just a thought.. after all..

Senior Commander James G..

coming soon to an outpost near you..

just something i thought was funny..

2008-08-02T21:59:00.005+08:00

haha.. i dun feel like talkin bout things.. lazy..

Well, saw Rachel in college on friday.. and met an Adam Khoo.. nice guy..

We won a group quiz game thing in accounts.. got a hamper.. theres pic down there..

Um.. oh, haha.. i drove a manual car today.. one step furthur to getting my license..

and met an Alvin See.. nice guy..

Oh, had durians just now.. God knows how long since.. BiG :)

haha.. oh, was walkin through college, thursday, i think..

then i saw high school students.. with red and green ties..

Prefects wore grey vests and pants/skirts..

(yes, awkward description.. i know..)

It was SMKT.. TROPICANA man..

Met Christine and her friends heading for the bus..

man, its been SO long (2 1/2 years)... i miss tropicana days..

the freedom.. liberty..

never bounded by rules, school authorities, or student body standards..

carefree..

and they call us 'rebels without cause'..

Mark my words: no student from any other school can imagine life in SMKT..

haha.. accounts class rocks.. (only for that day..)

took it while eating breakfast.. random.. i know.. lol..

2008-08-01T09:43:00.001+08:00

i slept 8 hours last night..
haha.. wow.. i feel.. awake..
typing from sunway computer lab now.. its like..
9.50am..

Yesterday..

While i was waiting for the bus..
Got to know someone from Uzbekistan.. Yeah..
Nulifar (lol.. thats her name, btw..) studies in Segi..
which if you dont know, is right in front of my house..
the only thing that reali struck me was her round brown eyes..
that was cool..

its funny, you know?
im sure youve met someone and talk and talk and talk and talk.. as if you know the person since forever.. haha..
then it ends and youre like "didnt i only met that person just now..?"
some people just click, i guess..
even from countries apart.. sometimes..

just another thought..

oh, this the best part..
i was the last to get on the bus..
and it was PACKED..
so it was two guys on the first step..
me at the bottom..
and behind me was the (back) door..

wait..

just when things couldnt get worse..
at the next stop the door opened and my foot got stucked between it in the first step..
(haha.. if you dont take public transport, you probably wouldnt understand..)
Now the door was half open..
and the ticket guy wanted to come in from the front
he said he could fit thru the gap.. but he couldnt..
so this genius (him, not me.. :P) pushed the door and made the 'gap' wider.. smashing my foot just a little bit more for the fun of it..
lol..

only AFTER he got in did he tell the driver to close the door n re-open it for everyone else to come in..

-as such are the experiences of my life

"..while youre still young do all the stupidest things you can.. when youre old, youll be too reasonable for any of them.."

H0t H0t ChickeN Sh1t..

2008-07-30T20:00:00.001+08:00

lol.. go figure..
it doesnt really take a genius to do that..

ive always had this dilema..
and ive read this topic on someone elses blog before..
its a problem faced by people who are genuinely in a battle against procrastination..
and.. haha.. who isnt?

in every school ive been to.. theres this initial drive to study hard..
you know?
when youre sorta inspired by the new books, stationary and uniform..
and in my situations, an entire enviroment

its a whole new beginning, a new chapter to start fresh with..
so you start studying.. chapters before the teacher even starts..
you finish your homework before class ends..
you sit right in front of class just for impression sake..
you ask questions to sound smart and interested..
you highlight, underline, bold and capitalize everything because its seemingly important..
you... well, you get the picture.. :)

then the slacking begins..
it starts with an innocent yawn..
then you accidently forget to bring your homework..
it builds, it accumulates..
and before you know it.. youre back in phase one..

well personally, my longest run was 6months.. then i sorta collapsed..
hey, it was an achievement to me.. i shut procrastination for half a year..

Now that ive started college, its hitting me again..
loosing momentum.. no more will no perform..
haha.. God help me..
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haha.. found good news on my email today..
my christian service project is approved.. with blessings too.. BiG :)
sigh.. finally something good came by.. :)

man.. ive got a test 2mrw.. MDM..
im hoping and praying i do well.. but i know ive got to study..

im starting to enjoy MDM class..
haha.. everyday SURE got drama one..
someone is bound to piss teacher off..
EVERYDAY..

okay, gotta study..
and get my chicken shit hot again..
LOL..

2008-07-29T20:20:00.000+08:00

i like today..

someone got me a 'Rocky' chocolate on the bus to make me feel better.. :) haha..
yeah..
thoughtful, but a lil wierd..
i guess coz it normally happens other way around..
thanks Sarah.. owe you one :)

Played heli attack 3 with Vincent (or veggie, as he wants to be known as..)
haha.. all the way till class started..

Got a survey to do...
for MDM..
effects of pollution on health care.. hm..

went for lunch with Yvonne and her friends..
Roselyn (well, pronounced that way, at least..) and Tanny (its short for something Russian)
haha.. lots of fun...
thanks for the great company.. :)

i walked home today..
haha.. from OU..
headed towards Ikea..
and straight down to Kota Damansara..
it was on purpose.. not accidently this time.. :P
and it felt good.. i feel healthy again..
haha.. but it was so tempting when the bus came pass me..
and that was like 4 times..

see, thats what i miss about hiking..
its time where i can really think..
time alone from everyone else..
time alone with God..

(maroon5-better that we break, listen to it..)

Today

2008-07-28T22:12:00.001+08:00

Today was quite an eventful day..
haha..

got my student ID.. finally (lousy pic.. as usual..)

bought my graphic calculator, nvr seen money fly off that fast in a loong time.. haha..

i had a mock quiz for accounts.. i did quite wel.. :D balanced..

and..

i missed the bus.. :(
i had to go 2 pyramid
lol.. ended up taking T623 there..
which went to KJ,
waited FOREVER 4 the right bus.. which nvr came..
so, giving in to my stomachs protest, i took a cab..
expensive.. lol..

but then i had a big big meal n fruits to top it off..
so its all good..

and then i came online..

My Say in Things:

2008-07-28T21:42:00.002+08:00

My say in things:

"All that you want to achieve, or desire to be, tell no one. For one will at the very worst mock and at the very least doubt. "
Ayn Rand - Do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplacable spark.
JRR Tolkien (LOTR) - But those who have laboured to prepare the feast like to keep their secret; for wonder makes the words of praise louder.

"There is no life lived purposelessly, or without a story worth telling..."

"The greatest battle in relationships is to choosing hurt the person you love the most, or yourself"

"God's will for man can be either an intricate web, brownian motion, or a perfect coincidence of both. As far as the human mind comprehends, the third is most likely."

"In everything you do only two things count, the Intention of your heart and the Impression that you give.""

"Ignorance isn't bliss, its either failure to understand either that you dont know everything, or you don't know best.

The precious plant in the little purple house..

2008-07-27T15:43:00.002+08:00

Once upon a time,
there was a gardener..
and this gardener had a big garden..
in this big garden grew many kinds of interesting plants..

On the left side of the garden grew Cabbages, Carrots and Cauliflowers..
and at the right, the garden had fruits like Pomelos, Pumpkins and Pineapples..

But the middle of the garden was most special..
because in it the gardener planted many many types of the most beautiful flowers..
from Lustrous Orchids and Dharling Dahlias..
to Wild Peach Roses and Orange Rec Coxcombs..
the middle of the garden was full of colourful flowers..

Right in the middle of all these flowers,
the gardener had built a funny little purple house..
this house had a little window, and a little table..
but it did not have a roof..

No, the gardener did not forget, but he remembered that all plants needed sunlight..
and in this little purple house was a very precious little plant..
why did he built the house?
because he did not want to show anyone his favourite plant..

So every time someone asked, "whats in that house, gardener?"
he would just reply, "there's a very special plant inside.."
and show them all his other plants,
giving water and putting fertilizer in their soil..

Then when night came, when there was no one around,
the gardener would go into the little house to look at his precious flower
giving special water and putting special fertilizer in its soil..
the gardener also sat by the plant because he knew that special plants need a lot of care to grow

As time went on, the precious plant in the little purple house grew..
now it had a bulb.. which would soon bloom into a flower..
the gardener was very happy because he knew the flower would be very pretty..

But the other plants around the house grew too..
and more and more people were interested in the gardeners garden..
everyone wanted to see how beautiful his garden was..

Everyday, he had to take visitors around his garden many times..
and every time someone asked, "whats in that house, gardener?"
he would just reply, "there's a very special plant inside.."
everybody wanted to see what was inside the little purple house..

But this made the gardener very tired..
he soon forgot of the precious plant in his little purple house..
the gardener stopped giving special water
and stopped putting special fertilizer in its soil..
he was too tired from showing everyone his garden to take care of his precious plant..

Days passed by
many visitors continued to visit his garden
and the gardener had no time to take care of his plant..

Inside the little purple house..
the precious plant began to feel lonely..
it felt that the gardener cared only for all the other plants

The plant also began to feel hungry and thirsty..
because the gardener forgot to give it special water
and put special fertilizer in its soil..

But what the plant wanted most was to have the gardener sit by the plant
because it was a special plant and needed a lot of care to grow

The plant began to die..
its bulb bloomed but the petals were weak..
and the petals and the leaves soon began to wither and fall off..

Days later, the gardener suddenly remembered about the precious plant..
he rushed to the little purple house to see if the plant was alright..
when he saw the plant, he was very sad because he thought that the plant had died..

But the precious plant was not dead
there were a few leaves that were still green..
why did it not die? how did it stay alive?
because there was no roof.. and the sunlight could still come in..
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thinkin of wat was.. and wat could possibly be..

26/7/2008

2008-07-26T20:28:00.001+08:00

i feel down..
because a lot of bad things are happening..
to me..
and to many of my friends..

everyones caught up in their situations..
and i wish i could help them..
i wish i could help myself..

some people find it hard to openly express how they feel..
afraid, maybe.. or just proud.. which is only human to do..
some try to feel better by laughing and telling jokes.. in vain..
and some just dont want to let other people down..
which is good.. but not right..
because everything stays inside..

but like what i said in my previous post..
i live my life an open book..
and i dont think its wrong to tell someone i feel down..
its.. only human.. after all..

wel, thats that..
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today was quite a day..

woke up early..
crazy.. haha..
had to fry lots of stuf for youth..
meat balls, nuggets, sausages..

fried and fried and fried..
but it was fun.. got my mind off alot..

look, i even botherd to take a picture..
fruits of labour.. (yes, im proud.. leave me alone.. lol..)

we set up the 'refreshments' late..
but we saw everyone coming.. they got the hint.. lol..

messed up the drinks tho,
haha.. forgot to bring the container..
so we called kat.. btw, thanks kat..
she had a little collapsible one..
but it had a whole at the bottom..
we learnt that the hard way.. yeah..
thanks kat..

but at the end, drinks were served.. :)
well.. more or less..

everything was prepared in a rush.. messed up through the whole thing..
love it when that happens..
because amidst all the panic and excitement theres so much fun
haha..

its not that i dont feel down now..
im not trying to hide or cover it up..
but it feels good, to give.. you know?
watching them eat.. chat.. laugh..
gets me everytime..

i wish i was there sometimes, but i think my place is behind the counter..
threw in a bottle of thai chilli 2..
that sold out fast..
i love thai chilli..

Hi, i just woke up..

2008-07-23T20:13:00.001+08:00

i just remembered why i chose this as a title for my blog..
lol..

today, they gathered all the CIMP students 2 vote.. for student council posts..
it was alright.. students tried to INSPIRE and FIRE UP the crowd, who evidently couldnt care less
and after SO so many - boring speeches.. the time came to vote..
and the time to vote passed..
end of story.. haha.. THAT bad..

Btw, im studyin in Sunway University College.. taking english, accountings and data management in CIMP (canadian international matriculation programme, if you must know..) its been fun.. some wat..

anyways,
i remembered i promised myself to get back up from procrastination and go make friends..
interact and socialize..
'waking up' from being socially lazy..

Cutting the long story short.. i went to my 8th skool fed up of making new friends.. so i decided to lay low, just keeping to my classmates..
7 skools of making and leaving friends isnt great fun, you know.. seriously..
EMOTIONALLY DRAINING..
so i told myself 2 rest and save it for college..
after all ill know them for only, wat? 2 years?

Back to the present..
Just started college, almost 3 weeks..
i guess i owe it to myself to make an initiative to know people.. haha..

tryin to join the Hiking and Treking Club.. but it COSTS.. and ive got a feelin ill hv to fork money from my own pocket..

maybe Basketball..(gleefully) maybe..
im not good tho.. probly make a mess.. but i love the game...
and my fingers are itching..

Wonder if they had some kinda performance arts club or drama or something.. id do that pretty well.. (not tryin to brag.. )

Wel, thats my attempt to 'wake up', im kinda stil in the process.. but ive met a few interesting people so far.. not meaning the classmates youre forced to be with, mind you..

PS: how did i colour the text? i mean.. get the toolbar on and all.. i lost it n cant seem to get it back.. now evrything looks boring.. :(
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ever missed something you gave up, then saw wat others had and realize that wat you missed wasnt reali that great at all?

just a pondering..

2008-02-21T01:05:00.001+08:00

im back.... frm Gunung Tahan
it was.. well.... an experiance, i guess..

its when something good or bad happens
n u just hv 2 stop n think,
coz ur put into a situation uve nvr been b4
n at the end of it,u learn something n grow stronger
an experiance..

So at the end v didnt go 4 the Waterfall..haha..
all 2 tired after the 4th day..haih...

11 ppl went..
3 adults, jIM, mICHAEL, AND lOW
6 guys, mE, kAH lEONG, kAH mENG, tIMOTHY, sAMUEL AND jI iAN
2 girls, jOSEPHINE aND lISAhaha..

i nvr knew so much could happen in 6 days..(i need 2 stay awake more)
we went through all kinds of stuf..from the normal FORESTS to MOUNTAINS (duh...)
SO MANY PAINFULL HILLS
A LOT of MUD grounds.. (my feet sank knee deep.. KNEE DEEP..)
Climb over fallen trees...
Climb under broken trees...

MIND U.. ALL THIS WAS DONE WITH A 20KG BAG ON MY BACK...
got 2 c a whole field of PITCHER PLANTS
we walked at the peak with BONSAI plants everywhere
we even saw lil RAFFLESIAs there

A lot of LEECHES
A lot of MOSQUITOS
A lot of BEES..

EVEN GOT LOST 1ce...
and it RAINED like mad almost every day...
EVERYTHING WAS DRENCHED

on a brighter note..
We had devotion on the summit of Tahan.. how great is that?
+ its the same time CALVARY was hvin a service as well

AND there was a time (4th day i think...)
we were pushing SO hard under the rain to reach the campsite
then suddenly Kah Leong started singin praise songs, and every1 followed..
every1 instantly felt great.. thank God, He saved the morale... :p

talk bout a perfect backpacking trip..
the whole package right there

Over all, it was exciting...
sure, tiring at times..
well, most of the time...

but its worth it when i look back now..everyone kept their cool under pressure..
thats impressive 4 the younger ones
but thats an experiances right?
i mean..

WHAT DOESNT KILL YOU ONLY MAKES YOU STRONGER
IN THE SAME WAY GOD WILL ALWAYS PUSH US TO GREATER HEIGHTS,
CONSTANTLY TESTING OUR TRUST IN HIM...

WHEN U N I FACE THINGS IN LIFE, ITS LIKE WE'RE GOIN UPHILL, U NO?
WELL, IF U ARE.. LOOK FORWARD TO THE VIEW ON THE SUMMIT..
AND THE EASY ROAD DOWN..COZ WHEN YOU TRUST GOD AND NOT YOUR STRENGTH, U GO WAY.... WAY... FURTHUR... THATS WHAT I DID...

PEOPLE ASK ME,

"WHY DO YOU DO THIS? TORTURE YOURSELF WHEN YOU CAN LIVE HAPILY AND ENJOY LIFE?"

firstly, WELL, YOU DONT KNOW YOU'R ALIVE TILL YOU START BLEEDING (copyrighted :p)
2ndly, IT BRINGS ME CLOSER TO GOD, NOT SO MUCH IN THE PHYSICAL SENSE..BUT IF GODS PUSHING ME EVERYDAY LIKE HOW I PUSH MYSELF WHEN I HIKE.. SOMEHOW I RELATE TO HIM MORE.. I UNDERSTAND HIM MORE..

the water was Ice-Lemon-Tea yellow at the top..
n i drank it with no purifiers, nothing... yeah...

Gnite

My lil suicidal attempt

2008-01-21T20:28:00.001+08:00

haha.. yeah, its about gunung tahan...
im just stressd out, (yes, stress levels arent dependent on how much u sleep...)
mainly bout my climb.. its gona b from Jan31 - Feb9..
9 DAYS of non stop walkin.. upwards..
talk a bout findin an efficent weightloss program..
its SO long, i cant find the whole course on google.. yeah..
well..

C the Merapoh trail? thats where we're gona start.. people with SOUND MINDS would go up n down that same way.. that wud take 4 days.... 2 days up, 2 days down..
the fun part is that the MIDDLE 2 days r so close 2 the summit that there is almost no water at all.. haha.. THE PLEASURE OF PAIN...

tis the course lil (SCHOOLGROUND-CAMPING TOWER-BUILDING USELESSLY-MARCHING) boy SCOUTS wud take just 2 pride themselves in 'conquering' a mountain..

n this is my way down.. this is the more interesting part...

its actually the other way around.. coz Merapoh is the west trail.. n Kuala Tahan's the south trail.. so, yeah..

if u botherd 2 look at the map, theers another peak right after tahan's.. SO THATS GONA B A LOT OF FUN...

then u go down...

n down...

n down 2 Kualu Teku.. thats where we're gona take a detour 2 the "4-step waterfall".. its not in the map, btw..

so um.. by the time we come back 2 Kuala Teku it shud b the 6th day...

then theres the 7 river crossing.. IM NOT TRYIN 2 MAKE THINGS LOOK BAD.. but they just r.. :P

7 rivers.. ever got bitten by leaches b4? thats where u get them..

n wats it like 2 walk with wet shoes 4 days?

IM NOT TRYIN 2 MAKE THINGS LOOK BAD.. they just r :(

after that.. its up again to settle Gunung Rajah.. (diagram mountain.. :p)

N "SADLY" the fun end with going through the 27 HILLS..

27 hills.. 27.. wonder who counted... well then, that ends it..

EVERY NS TRAINEE WILL BEG 2 DIFFER, BUT THIS WILL DEFINITELY BE HARDER THAN GOIN THROUGH NATIONAL SERVICE, TRUST ME..

@#$% YOU...

2008-01-15T21:11:00.001+08:00

pls, PLS dun call pastor 2 sit me down for a "chat" after readin that...

you really dun no whats the censored part anyways, do you?

i mean it could mean 'shit'.. 'damn', maybe? the imediate reaction wud be the infamously popular 'f*%K'..

"GASP!! did he just write that !!? kwai lil nvr-miss-a-sunday-in-church hansel just wrote WAT !!?!"

Chill first lar...

thats brings me to the real purpose of this post..

(typical, isnt it? everything i/a-general-guy does always hv 2 b based on purpose)

is there a diference in cursing standards?

is there an ULTIMATE curse?

n other lesser curses?

Interesting

majority of Christian wud say NO based on the fact that 'sin is sin' no matter what attempt to make it look good/ok/acceptable

atheist/freethinkers/considerers wud say YES based on, well...

EXPERIANCE.. (i no i spelt it wrong but wateva la)

Ill bet every1'll 1 2 no (or probably already knew by now) if there were an ultimate curse

(lets just call it UC, if were even gona use it again)

hahaha.. the just-woke-up feeling is SO addictive... i can like think properly now..

anyways

i DONT believe that there is any diference in cursing..

e.g.

'A' drops a pen n goes "F*%k..."

'A' steals 'B's boyfriend... n 'B' goes "Sugar..." :(

if u tel me A meant it more ill tel u uve got ur brain where ur ass should be

..sry..

but does that mean if i cant control my tongue (yet).. i can just go aroun 'F*%k!n' every1?

( haha.. u(n i) wish... )

THEN WHY M I CONTRADICTING MYSELF BY CENSORING 'F*%K' IN THE FIRST PLACE IF IT IZNT ANY DIFREN FRM SHIT?

hence i dont believe sayin 'sugar' or 'rut' disqualifies a person frm cursing

infact, if u look at it this way

curses can b neutralized into normal words

like shit which originally mean feaces

or frm another view

any word can become a curse

like how shit evolved frm feaces 2 a curse

i guess it still goes down 2 what is generally accepted as 'ok'..

i mean, u n i no how to 'tone-down' with our parents and wheneva the situation calls..

wat im typin is not a justification to curse for all, christian n non-christian alike

its to unanimously ban any word frm being perverted

theres no such thing as an ultimate curse..

in a perverted world like this? theres bound 2 b a curse worse than F*%k

its just a matter of TIME

I NEED MORE SLEEP... GOODNITE

feelings...

2007-12-28T22:59:00.001+08:00

haih

im so mixed now...

i feel happy..

coz so many ppl r back..

my sis, ashley, charmaine, lauranne, um.. sze rong..

michelle.. thats all i can remember at the moment.. sry if i misd any1 out..

Thank God 4 frens 2..

especially those CW ppl ive known 4eva.. shud hv taken more time 2 no each 1 a lil more..

i feel tired...

its after christmas n so much 4 the christmas spirit...

well, its not that i hate it.. its just that it really gets kinda routine sometimes..

maybe its just me, i duno.. u tel me..

i feel scared...

2mrw im climbing Gunung Nuang...

ive done it b4... but dis time im carryin a 10kg load

(well, suppose 2.. anyways..)

n i hvnt packed.. haihz...

but what im really afraid is doing Gunung Tahan on Feb...

the thing is.. its not gona b the usual 4 day upward hike with no water source save a lil brooke..

were gona play hero n decend a longer way.. 2 top it all of, we'll even take the detour 2 the waterfall.. 9 DAYS all 2gather..

Tahan has always been my dream.. seriously..

its just that i nvr imagined accomplishing it this way..

i feel um... wierd..

well, someone actually found my blog..

n if he/she s reading it now.. u might realize now that im talkin bout u...

i feel exposed.. striped.. naked..

my hearts thoughts all pourd out.. now read by U?

think ill change my url..

n my hp

n my ic

n my adress

hell, its just a couple of posts.. haha

i feel tired.. (again)

so many emotions concentrated 2gather..

its just unhealthy.. i no..

guess im just bad at expressin how i feel..

guess its just a guy thing.. or izit just ME?

do i need help?

well.. my aunts a psychiatrist.. ill c her..

if u need me

ill b in Taman Bahagia..

hey blogging IS therapeutic..

"The youth are 2 rash 2 realize that certain things are impossible..

2007-12-18T23:35:00.001+08:00

thats why they accomplish them anyways..."

Ok, im awake now..

So.. prom ws.. kinda boring.. honestly la..
performances sucked, in exception for a few..
but the dj ws good..
yet wat can u xpect la.. high skool onli wat..
+ yi han organized it.. so wateva la..
i think the momentum picked up more 2wrds the 2nd half of the nite..
k la.. it ended.. um.. nicely..?

omega party ws beta...
guess its coz i hate big crowds.. n i knew these ppl (well enuf, i think..)
um.. v (tried to) sing christmas carols..
den.. eat so much coz every1 brought a lot of stuf...
den.. spen a lot of time givin testimonies.. which ws really unusual..
(ok im gona go into pastor mode..)

what i like bout this incident ws that it showd strongly the sense of unity v had.
being unafraid 2 share things in this smaller group n showin hu v really r without social fears..
1 thing that also impressed me ws the maturity of omega that either suprisingly grew this year
or has onli been displayed on that day..
another thing continuously mentioned is the problem of unity in the church (in this case: calvary youth...) which is extremely evident especially 2 us, having been in Christ Ambassadors for the longest time..
(ok.. im gettin sleepy again..)

well, we had a suprise party 4 ching yesterday..
of all places.. in a tuition centre...!
atleast i end my high skool life hvin met Terry Tee The Tuitor..
My mom tot v had sex there... serious..
um, yeah.. thats it.. i guess..

oh yeah.. n the JLSA thing.. its an award i got in rangers..
nothing big la.. just 1ted 2 bangga abit.. (2 my imaginary reader, yes, im aware...)
it stands 4 'junior leader service award'..
i think if every1 got awards for wat they did in church.. every1 wud b serving A LOT more..
then again.. every1 wud be serving just 4 the medals, instead of 4 God..
i guess thats y i dun really care bout this award..

ok la.. im seriously sorry.. pics 2mrw k?
i dun expect an "its ok, i understand" coz
1. i dun deserve it...
2. theres nobody reading anyways...

Good nite.. nobody...

PROM, omega party n Chings thing... n my JLSA

2007-12-18T00:07:00.001+08:00

HAIHZ.. sry, tired la..
i no ive been dragin this post like 4eva but.. im so sleepy now..
Promise ill fill it up 2mrw, k? wif lots of pics 2..

Gnite, imaginary (interested) reader..

A break from hibernation..

2007-12-13T10:54:00.002+08:00

well not, really.. lifes been more of the opposite..

ive been SO bz wif SO many things...
Its been i-dunno-how-long since the last post

Well.. first i repainted my porch..

my utmost PRIDE..
leather brown... :P

hu died? lol.. ME

love this pic..

then theres the GRACE YOUTH CAMP 07...

thats about 3000 ppl

im aroun the right

YEAH !! my team, v came in 1st..

c the hamper?

haha, yeah they called it MEIN KREUZ.. its german..

suppose 2 mean MY CROSS.. c the parallel?

Anyways, the camp ws great.. the ppl ws great.. God was great.. wat can i say?

winning means gettin the most money at the end of the day

(by sucking up 2 the so-called billionaires)

V basically won coz 5 of us guys got 2gather n sang carols 2 all of them..

C the pilot uniform? v even offered 'flights' everywhere..

WEll, other than that, there was the real 'camp at Hulu tamu wif the Rangers..

but no pix :(

if u think that isnt enuf.. theres PROM 2day n the OMEGA party dis sat..

n then theres CHRISTMAS !!! shit, hvnt done my shoping...

anyways, gtg.. getin ready 4 prom.. BTW, im dateless.. any takers?

didn think so..

BYE, imaginary readers..

Well, not really.. but anyways..

2007-12-04T19:17:00.002+08:00

OK, im completely aware that im probably talkin 2 no1 right now but..

TADAA !

heres my blog...

Well, hving been somewat ignorant about wats happening in the world,

i m now (officially) waking up frm hibernation n 2 those hu think im the first Malaysian 'living dead', im gona prove u wrong..

hence the blog..

im a brutally honest person (quoting frm a compliment/critic of a fren)

So ill admit that i dun realy no wats a blog,

let alone how 2 use it..

N i realy dont get the concept of 1...

Anyways, yeah, slowly learn la..

k, i probably written enuf 2 bore u 2 death......

then again, im talkin 2 no1.... haha.. i feel lifeless

Ok, time 4 a lil nap... bye, imaginary reader...